My boyfriend recently proposed to me, and even though of course I said yes the way he did it wasn't how I imagined he would and left me a bit deflated. We had an amazing holiday planned which is where he had planned to do but life got in the way and we had to cancel due to the fact he is currently unwell.
However, this triggered an anxiety response and my quick, run away it will be easier to deal with if you are alone raised its ugly head. Even though I have been suffering from GAD since a dysfunctional childhood it never ceases to surprise me where the condition springs up and effects me.
When I met the man I was going to marry I thought I would be 110% sure and everything would fall into place. Whilst doing some internet research I came across a website and blog and even though it is from 2010 it struck a cord with me. I suddenly realised my tendancy to over analyse every situation (especially relationships) are down to my make up, GAD and personality and doesn't reflect on my relationship or man.
I just wanted to post it on here incase anyone is going through the same,
It is very reassuring and once again reminded me I am not alone in this, either my anxiety or destructive thoughts.
Sure between now and then wedding there will be a few more panicked blogs!