Along with my OCD and GAD, I have suffered from insomnia for over a year...and generally live on a couple of hours sleep. I have previously been prescribed zopiclone for short term use.
But the last few nights I have slept but woken up in the early hours sweating, shaking, and feeling terrified.
All my intrusive thoughts seem to wrap themselves into one big distater - while I'm sleeping, in my dreams. I wake up believing my world has fallen apart, and with thoughts of suicide. I visualise doing this, and dream of the pain and then sense of relief in my mind (Its just in my head, I haven't acted on these thoughts/pictures).
Also, memories of my dreams haunt moments of my days and at times I think they are real.
I'm now scared of sleeping. My bedroom doesn't feel safe. The thought of going to sleep fills me with anxiety and fear, and I feel sick as night approaches....
How can I have a phobia of sleeping? Especially as normally getting to sleep is a rarity, and so feels like a blessing and luxury.