New to Anxiety UK not new to Anxiety. How I feel and how I cope... hoping this helps me and others.

[Ladygrey]

Hello. Firstly when i'm suffering i don't cope...

I suffering anxiety attacks, I feel better for five minutes and suffer again, its an endless cycle and there never appears to be a light at the end of the tunnel.

At present a three year relationship has ended,

Promotion opportunities at work with the barrier or online verbal reasoning test coupled with the fact that I've been working in the higher grade and to fail ( in my present state of mind I'm thinking I will) life will be unbearable.

I cancelled an operation irrationally and struggling with that decision.

Not life threatening issues but I am my lowest.

I will go to the Drs but not looking forward to the first fortnight of taking medication.

I've spoken to friends especially a best friend who always helps me through these troubled times and I appreciate it after the event but right now I cannot cope.

I keep going but it's work, bed, work, bed at the moment.

[greengrape]

Hi Ladygrey,

Welcome to Anxiety UK. I can understand you feeling so low, anxiety can do that. Don't give up though, there is help out there, it's just a case of finding the right thing that works for you. Have you tried therapy to help you manage and treat your symptoms? Some medications can be helpful too, you don't always have side effects, I didn't when I started on mine.

[hollow]

Hi after an accident 18 months ago I've been suffering panic/anxiety attacks. I convince myself they happen all the time I keep a log of sorts and in reality they don't happen as often as I think and the frequency and duration are definitely becoming shorter and greater respectively. What I'm saying is hang on in there it does get easier. Tho tell me that when I'm having an anxiety attack and I'll probably dismiss what you're saying, that's the cunning side of anxiety, it catches you off guard which I know in my case makes the episodes feel a hundred times worse.

[etmoo]

Hello LadyGrey,

A lot of what you described really struck a cord with me,I began experiencing acute anxiety about 2 months ago,felt then every day I wouldnt cope....this came on I thought out of the blue but knew I was very stressed and suppressing lots of emotion.My long term relationship has major faults and work pressure building are a recipe for anxiety to implode,it did.I was ringing friends at all hours,just to hear a familiar comforting voice,real friends will be there for you whatever/whenever.I had to seek medical help and have been on a betablocker to help with the physical symptoms,racing heartrate,restlessness,not sleeping then also an antidepressant.I found keeping a diary useful just to look at patterns of when the attacks were worse,also planning your day,if you can hour by hour,doing lots of deepbreathing and walking,be kind to yourself it will get better.I've taken some time off sick,an unknown for me but the nature of my job (mental health) i couldnt function responsibly.I've sought support from psychologist and also exploring Relate counselling to repair releationship.take care.

[Ladygrey]

Thank you, replies have been a great help.

I was really really struggling this morning being on my own is hard and unfortunately I couldnt get myself together to get to work but positives are I have my appetite back which is a good sign (?) and i hope to sleep as I've exhausted myself with emotion.

I have the Drs tomorrow.

Slowly I'm working on each problem, problems I've brought on myself so guilt is also an issue.

I have to decide... Is it best to keep myself out of these situations... stay single, be happy with my current work position, be content with what I have?

I think so.

Please if you're suffering - write a blog, it's both therapeutic and the replies do help. And if you can - talk. True friends will listen again and again and again.