Parents get back today

[Chloefer]

Parents have been on holiday this week and they get back today. Not looking forward to it as they're the main reason I keep getting overly anxious. Feel terrible today, woke up from a dream which upset me, which once again set off my anxiety. I need friends to support me but the only person I trust is getting annoyed by me keep turning to him for help. Sent him an email last night, don't know if he's read it or not. I feel so isolated at the minute, so alone but there's nothing I can do about it. Feeling so crap and down about myself because every time I seem to make progress something gets in the way and knocks me back ten steps...

[Scooby1234]

Its a horrible feeling to feel isolated, remember you're not on your own. You shoul never put yoursel down, always someone on here to talk to, including me! X

[Chloefer in reply to Scooby1234]

Thank you for replying, and thank you, I feel so crap at the minute. x

[AuctionGirl]

Don't beat yourself up. I'm sure you're making more progress than you think. And even if you are getting knocked back to where you started sometimes, at least you're not getting worse. It's a bit of a Pollyanna thing to say, but sometimes you have to look really hard to find a positive and it's still important to find one! Are you sure your friend is getting annoyed with you, or is that your paranoia as a result of anxiety? I hope you start to feel better soon. Remember, there are lots of people here who can share what you're feeling. x

[Chloefer in reply to AuctionGirl]

Thank you for your reply. I wish i knew if it was paranoia or not tbh, he just seems that whenever i text him, even if hes doing nothing (and has just said hes doing nothing so can text) he wont reply to my texts or answer his phone if I ring. I dunno just cant trust people very well x

[AuctionGirl]

He might be scared or overwhelmed and just not know what to say. Anxiety can be a frightening thing for people who don't suffer from it. But I'm afraid sometimes people do just let you down as well, and you need to know that you can be strong on your own. Which you can be. And you're never totally on your own when there's lots of people on here to talk to. Maybe there are other people in your life that you can open up to without realising it. When I first became ill I turned to a friend who had had anxiety for years, believing she was the only one who could help me through it. Unfortunately she turned her back on me straight away, which meant I didn't dare confide in anyone else. I wish I had because when I finally had the strength to tell some of my other friends they were far more supportive. I hope you see the brighter times soon. x

[bebushka]

I too thought I had "friends" but sadly I had to find out they werent, but there are people who care, there are always people on this forum who you can turn to and know exactly how you feel. During the years I have met people who feel exactly like me and are always there fr me like I am for them. I find that keeping a daily journal of how I feel really helps. I also find that being on a good diet free of sugar helps enormously. Anxiety is an horrendous feeling but you will overcome it. I am here for you always xx