bad anxiety and pressure of family and Autistic burnout

[Flamegame]

I currently live with my parents and I’m adult but I struggle with wanting job that won’t cause my anxiety and chest and depression usually keep me afraid and honestly I left my first ever job due to the stress and anxiety my boss gave me…. Just last night I was happy and soon as everyone got back from eating I basically avoid my father due to he don’t think a man should feel way i do and I should have a job and honestly I scared but at same time I couldn’t face him because I know arguments happen with him and that stack my anxiety and I avoid talking to him last few weeks and honestly I don’t know what do besides now force my self to get a job and if I’m unhappy and cry and just a lot of feeling and thoughts I should just hold them in …. And just fake my smile and put my mask on again

[gajh]

Hello. I just wanted to Welcome you here. I hope that connecting with others who have depression and anxiety will help you as it has helped me. This is a safe place to express your thoughts and feelings.

[Blueshirt]

Hi, I am sorry to hear that you have to hide your pain. Sensitive people have great emotional intelligence I am told. But at times to protect ourselves we cannot share our feelings with those we love and who love us because they do not have the same sensitivities. It is not good for us to have to do this. But sometimes it is better than the conflict of sharing our feelings.

This forum though will help you as all of us here can share our pain, anxiety, feelings, worries with others who do understand. It's good. I hope you get a job where there are nice people. They exist, and when you gat one it can make you happy. I have had good jobs with horrible people and mundane jobs with nice people. Working with nice people makes life good. I hope and pray you get one with nice people and can enjoy the company of good people.

Good luck. Keep posting here please