Health Anxiety

[Jones567]

Hi, it’s been awhile. One minute I’m doing good. Next minute I’m down really bad. I’ve been out of work for weeks. I was suffering for constipation, rectum pain and abdomen pain. Finally went to ER. Had a CT scan was diagnosed with Iitesis and diverticulosis. I was referred to gastroenterologist asap. Unfortunately, I googled everything, and I’m convinced I have colon cancer or some type of cancer. I honestly feel like I’ve been misdiagnosed or it’s something they’re not telling me especially with them ordering me to see specialist ASAP. I’ve been up the last few days worrying dreading the worse. I’ve also been told I have nodules on my lungs last year so I’m just thinking cancer cancer. I Just don’t understand just a few weeks ago I was fine now it’s like I’ve went back to 2018 again. Weight loss, sleepless, can’t work, constant worrying and googling. Panic and anxiety😫

[BeKind28-]

Hello

I have always suffered with health anxiety as far back as I can remember and like you everything in my head turns into the worst scenario and yes I stupidly go on Google and that tells me I am right because it always comes up with the worse scenario and sometimes it can be like I keep searching till it does which after I think that was insanity to do that why did I do it but I do

Then about 4 years ago my worst fears came true I got double pneumonia been rushed into resuscitation left me with PTSD and I year later I went on to have 3 heart attacks in the space of about 5 months followed by a triple heart Bypass

As I have said I have always had severe health anxiety after all this and then other issues since been diagnosed been diabetic , also have stomach issues so many smaller things but enough to constantly have me in that mode of " what if " making myself ill with worry and literally now just trying to get through a day at a time which is getting so hard to do

I try and would say to others even though I feel I fail but all those negative thoughts that keep coming in try and reverse them to positive one's like when your head thinks what if they have got it wrong tell yourself they are the professionals why would they get it wrong it would be more than their job was worth

Not sure if you take any medication for your anxiety or had therapy but if you have had therapy see if you can be referred again

I know this is an awful debilitating way to be and know one knows unless they suffer and I am sorry I don't have the answers but I wanted to let you know that you are not alone even though we would not wish anyone else to suffer sometimes knowing others are out there struggling with the same thing can help as you can feel so alone with this and as if you are the only one but there are so many of us just the same and doing the best we can x