first time on this site

[Kicker113640]

hello, I am a 56 year old female. new to this site, I suppose I can call what I have anxiety.. or I have a phobia anything to do with doctors etc. I finally this year, forced myself to go see a doctor for a yearly check up and now I am driving myself crazy waiting for blood work results. Which I don't get for another week. Fortunately, my mammogram came back normal. Whew. Anyway, I cannot help focusing on, that I am going to be told I have something bad. I am newly retired, and cannot seem to enjoy life these days.. so I just try to keep myself distracted with (looking after my elderly dad) friends, TV etc. and waiting for summer to finally start here in Winnipeg, lol. Anyone else, fear of doctors? thanks!

[kenster1]

hi welcome aboard hopefully being here will be of good support.

[Kicker113640 in reply to kenster1]

thank you!

[XoxoFaith]

Hi and welcome yes I fear doctors too the anxiety just gets so bad thinking the worst

[Kicker113640 in reply to XoxoFaith]

thanks, its nice to know I am not alone.

[Mariakelly]

Hi kickerI'm practically the same age as you, look after elderly parents and have a fear that something bad is about to happen every day. Maybe it's that they'll pass away soon and its a way of preparing myself.

Just saying I also have a feeling of forboding... maybe summertime might relieve this.

[Kicker113640 in reply to Mariakelly]

I have never heard of the word foreboding before, . so I just looked it up. YES that is exatly how I feel everyday.. Like, I am waiting for the "next" bad thing to happen. Its a awful feeling. I when I do find , moments of happiness joy, it is shortened by that feeling. Wow, I have never heard of that word before, lol, Glad I am not alone.. thanks!

[Arlene99]

Hi KickerWelcome to the forum & yes I can sympathise with u as I live in constant fear that if I go to dr for anything I will b told bad news…….so therefore apart from taking my anxiety meds I just try & ignore any other symptoms x

[Kicker113640]

thanks everyone for your replies. It just sucks..lol. Next Wed I get my blood work/urine and I guess I will know either way. knowing though, you have all thought the same thoughts, has made me feel better. Plus I am looking after my dad, so I do think at times, if I pass, there is noone to look after dad. weird how a person gets these thoughts Thanks again everyone

[kama24]

I wish we had a family doctor. Ours retired last June. There is a big shortage of them in ON. I get nervous when I had to go to him. I always thought the worse. Anymore I say "why worry about it until it is known to be true". Take care.

[Mikes21 in reply to kama24]

I like your saying and will use it to get through my next ct scan.

[kama24 in reply to Mikes21]

Good luck on your next CT scan.

[Mikes21 in reply to kama24]

Thanks so much!

[Kicker113640]

thank you , you are right!

[Mikes21]

Wow you sound like me except I’m male. I’m 57 and newly retired and worried about upcoming ct scan. They found a small lesion on my liver on last ct scan and so I peruse the internet and scare myself with the dreaded c word. I read most lesions are benign but then I go through the what ifs. Anyway I am going to go with just get the ct done cause it’s all about early detection. I’m glad to know I’m not the only one that has fear. I hope and pray 🙏🏻 all goes well for you and me!

[kama24 in reply to Mikes21]

Fear and anxiety are not easy to talk ourselves out of. I realize we are not alone in this and all we can do it try to fight our fear with reason. Nor are you alone in googling symptoms and outcomes.....not always wise to do, we have to keep trying