Build up of anxiety

[ABCD98]

I'm quite anxious at the moment. It started by playing a computer game, which I rarely do nowadays. I got into it for a week straight where I let some of my responsibilities slip and my sleep moved forward a few hours, this made it tough to get to the things I normally schedule and I had to cancel/rearrange a few things.

After a few days of playing I felt it was time to get things back on track, but doing so was not an on/off switch, it's taking some time but getting a bit better each day (that odd feeling of knowing what you want to do but not doing it). There was a slight feeling of loss of control here. I certainly feel a bit low mood and sluggish.

I was then threatened over skype by someone. The details of this are long and not important, but I blocked him and got on with my day, however it did not help matters of how I was already feeling and I found my thoughts playing scenarios of what I'd do if he began stalking me on the streets, and thoughts of previous threats and fights I was in were on my mind that night.

Now today the doctor called me to say that the hospital has requested I get bloods after taking my ECG (Heart readings, the meds I'm on increase risk of heart complications and the ECG is a common precaution, the bloods request from the hospital does not seem standard procedure though). I already had my bloods taken a few weeks ago, so I was a bit surprised the requests was made again so soon, but I did not think to ask why over the phone. My health is something I try to be proactive about, however even with semi-severe outcomes health anxiety normally does not bother me, but the uncertainty mixed with my current state already had my brain flash up thoughts of dying and how I would distribute my assets/spend my remaining time with loved ones.

[Agora1]

Hi ABCD98, slow down my friend, I don't think you will be going anywhere soon.It sounds like the doctor is just taking the necessary precautions by rechecking your

blood tests so he can make a decision if he should leave you on the medication.

(weighing the benefits against the risk.)

When we take some of our stressors off the table, it can help us cope better.

Set up your Lab appointment and keep us updated on the results.

The more important thing right now is keeping yourself safe from this stalker or the

person who threatened you. Take care xx

[ABCD98 in reply to Agora1]

I probably should clarify I did not take the worry or thoughts of death seriously Only that the worry had those thoughts play.

The jolt of worry I got from the "hospital requested we do blood works" with no further explanation, and then the preceding uncertainty had my thoughts go there for some short period of time.

It is very likely nothing major and I'll find out more on Tuesday, I'll be sure to update

[Agora1 in reply to ABCD98]

Keep that attitude my friend. I too don't believe it's anything major. Good Luck, we'll talk more when you get the results. xx

[ABCD98 in reply to Agora1]

Little later than Tuesday, they found my white-blood cell count is low and they want to do blood checks every 6 weeks for now, no immediate action to be taken so I imagine it's fine and just a thing to keep an eye out on.

[Agora1 in reply to ABCD98]

Hi ABCD, thanks for sharing this update.I can't tell you how many times I've had repeats on blood tests.

Sometimes it just fixes itself by waiting 6 weeks.

Try not to worry, your doctor is following through and watching it. xx

[nkotbjoeymc]

I had this problem for a long time.

[SOPHIA24]

I too think it is a build up of stress I wake up some mornings already having panic attacks I doubt it’s anything healthwise you always think that you always think of a worse soda why but it really ever is it’s usually anxiety I wake up every morning feeling good for about 15 minutes and then it starts the shakiness the outer space feeling then I get myself crazy with worry I bought the book DARE recommended by someone in our group you can get it on Amazon and then you can get the app they give you two free weeks of the apps I go back-and-forth with whether it’s helping or not but some of the apps really do help you especially when you have a panic attack they help you to get out of that try to do a little bit of yoga every day deep breathing exercises which they will teach you on Dare you just have to not think of my worst and think of all good things try to I know it’s easier said than done hopefully we could help one another out

[nkotbjoeymc in reply to SOPHIA24]

I do the same thing.