anxiety attack

[mydog56]

i am new here and i felt this dizzyness in my head and i have this headach and mostly everything else that bugs me mostly that gives me anxiety i do not know if i did worry about my mom when i go to school or not but i think i eat enough breakfest and snacks and water too so it is really painful for me like when i go on the computer my brain has poor mamorie of like names and passwords and all of those stuff

[mydog56]

i feel like it is kind of about my friends cause they are lying to me and also they are bullying me and sending rumors bad about me to other friends, i have to go on the bus sometimes and i see the bully boy there to bully me in the morning and after school and that made me feel fear inside my body , you know , but i am telling the teachers and did everything but it is not working you know, my teacher is worried about me not feeling good at school and on the bus

[mydog56]

thanks

[mydog56]

thanks yes that is what i am going to do thanks for that , i am still already telling teachers , yes i agree no one should be treated that way

[mydog56]

same , your funny but understandable and true 😃 i am gonna talk to the bully and the teacher on monday i had enough😡

[mydog56]

thanks but i am scared with anxiety

[mydog56]

mostly , i took a shower to get my hair clean and to get my scaredness out of my mind for monday , but i just can not get the feeling out yet , i feel fear inside everytime i say i got this, my fear comes in and say, no you do not cause you are so good in hands to tell the teachers and everything but the bully is getting you badly so i am not sure what is gonna happen

[mydog56]

can you tell me what to do?

[mydog56]

thanks i agree, with the bullying part. although i already know and agree with all of that your saying, mostly i am glad i am gonna talk to the teacher , and let him talk to the bully , and i will still talk more , with them, but mostly , i am having plans that makes me safe , mostly from the bully near me and talking to the teacher with me , mostly i can tell, that there is mostly all the same stuff going away from me cause the bully took it away and has it now, i am afraid that this might be bad on monday but who knows, mostly i have been writing in my notebook too,,,, but it did not work cause mostly i still have those strong feelings in me , that he gave me inside you know, and all of the strong feelings just hurts me inside, just like when i still got fear , when he told me all these bad words and the other bad stuff, cause mostly i feel like in my life time i was not bullied and had none of this in my last 2 school's but now in this 3rd school it is happening and i blocked him in my chormbook, we used to be friends last year , but it went bad last year too cause he bullied me and stuff and said oh you reported me to a teacher about me killing you with a gun and i am like that is not true i did not say that and that is a lie.... i feel like i need more then peace and respect , i need nice and kind words from friends , and have friends that does not lie to me , mostly i had it nice until it happened this year too, he still texts massages and emails me in the chormbook and i hate it cause like we are supposed to stop this already and now he is lying to me about things like stuff that did not happen and other stuff, mostly , he also sended rumors about me to his all friends, and i hate it cause he is supposed to only not tell anyone and yet he gets me in trouble and i did not get in trouble and i think there is some friends that lie to me you know and i hate liers ......

[mydog56]

yes but he is a student at my school i can not let him be in jail but if he was a adult he was gonna go to jail balieve it or not and also he is doing bad things to me in real life too plus he is not really good cause he is going to somewhere that i am going to on wednesday , he used to go to my game jets , and i quited the game now so i am not going to the game cause the boy is there

[mydog56]

he is doing so many things that is out of line

[mydog56]

i know i do want to see, but he is a student at my school, i do not want him to go to school cause he is a student at school plus his mom is at work most of the days and it is really hard to do something by yourself

[mydog56]

i know and thanks

[mydog56]

when i go to places or talk in groups with teachers with him i can like feel fear in times when i see both of them but if it is just me and the teacher i do not feel fear, i only feel anxiety in both times, and then after i feel depression, so yes bullying is not my stage but i know how it feels if i feel hurt you know, i told many teachers and i am not afraid to tell him how i feel about it, but i am scared what he is going to say and how he will react , you know, and then like there is so many things happening like his friend today called me a bad word saying this , i thought so bitch, you know ,

[mydog56]

thanks , yes i hope so too, he needs to know that saying lies, mean things, and bad words, and telling others about me and my mom is not okay you know, and i hope one day to tell him it is not okay, i know you want me to keep me safe and and do not want me in this feelings, and your doing the right thing like me, and i think your dad is right too, he is super good at his job, and the same with you, and also your like kind of my support animal human being , your super nice in every way and i wish you were telling me in real life this stuff, but oh well you know, at least we get to talk here about this stuff,

[mydog56]

my mom has been picking me up and being me home now at days and i have not been in the bus witch is good , cause mostly the bus i ignore and other stuff and it does not work mostly out, so when i ride in the back and front i ignore and other stuff that does not stop, and i tried but the bully still takes enurgy from me and other stuff and so i take rides from my mom and now my brother now so it works perfectly

[Marshall64]

No one deserves to be treated like that. Can you block him on your Chromebook?

You mentioned that he sucks the energy out of you. I understand that about some people. I wish I had advice for you. I have a daughter almost your age so my heart goes out to you. There is a good group of people here (you already talked to one of them in Mratl). We are here for you.

[mydog56]

i agree

[mydog56]

i agree i have more to say though

[mydog56]

so today was a bad day for me cause i could see how much of bully that boy was and it was really not great

[mydog56]

he still bullies me and says lies to the teacher and me and he showed my videos on tiktok and instagram and i am like banned from those apps that is just wrong

[mydog56]

yeah , they just agreed with me , and they know how gabe showed it to them the videos but i did not say anything bad in the video you know and i did not post them even on tiktok and instagram and i did none of the things he showed my teacher. i did not make a video of them and the song with bad words in it i did not, i mostly agree with myself that the bully is lying to me and the teachers, but i know he is lying cause he did say that he was black so i can not date a white girl like you

[mydog56]

i blocked the apps anyways, so i do not know how they could see it, cause i deleted it cause for safety you know,, he has proven to me and the teacher that this is to the haters,,, and it made me feel lots of bad feelings and stuff you know, but he did many bad things that bully people do and i think he needs to learn stuff and when he lies too much like to learn to respect others😡🥵 so i am just sad and mad at him cause so many things happening and i do not want to do this anymore

[mydog56]

okay i will still do that thank you , yes he keeps saying lies and it is getting worst everytime and jack can agree with me but now he can agree with the bully, cause the bully showed the videos to jack and i think the bully is showing lies to the teacher and me and so not only me but he is angry at my friend at school too lily

[mydog56]

mostly the bad word rap song i made, and the videos i made with there name on it

[mydog56]

its really confusing to me , it is just that the bully often tell other friends in the hole school about like bad stuff about me and then he talks about my mom in other friends faces and it is like they want me to be in trouble

[mydog56]

i agree, as we are talking i am thinking and writing it down

[mydog56]

thanks i wish you were with me at school,

[mydog56]

i feel mostly like he is in my nerves you know and the thing is i do not want to get in trouble cause what if i work at a coffee place near me you know, it is not possable you know to me i might get fired cause they might think there is something wrong with me

[mydog56]

thanks for both of those things you make me laugh, and have joy in my heart. yes i do not need to be treated like someone who like bullies me out of no where at my school getting me in trouble you know plus if the bully is in my way always and i tell the teacher on him, it never stops near me, i feel like lots of things i am saying are true you know but often this should be not good in school, they have a sign to stop the person but it never goes on you know in school and when he does it, he does, and it is really tough , for me to say some things that are true to me that he did to me, but i did say 1 thing and he has proven to me that he said that.

[mydog56]

and the 1. thing he said is, this is to all the haters that are here, and then he singed a song with bad words on the bus, and the thing is i get so mad cause he did it you know and mostly it is just strongly on me cause he gets all my same moods gone and feelings gone and it is like am i in trouble? cause he is not being great to me he is just saying something that is not nice

[mydog56]

yes

[mydog56]

its the bully that did it to me at school not my parents

[mydog56]

i agree, i did not go to school today cause of the bullying going on and some lies going on and everything and mostly i am gonna do online school, but clearly i am staying home cause i have been feeling sick from the mask cause of covid19 , and when they make me do activity's in school i feel sick

[mydog56]

i get sick from the mask, i will tell you those things tomorow, pm me massage me so i can tell you okay, i am really busy

[mydog56]

yes i want to tell you many things there

[mydog56]

i sent you a massage in pm

[mydog56]

and followed you

[mydog56]

it should say mydog56 followed you and texted you or something like that, but also you know that is not my age and name that is my username , i have lots, but my real age is 16 and my name is tecla so