Conclusion

[anon99]

I’ve come to the conclusion that I have severe anxiety because; (drum roll)

I am afraid of reality and the present time. The truth is, everything looks just how it’s suppose to. I just frighten myself and train my brain to think it’s bad.

I’m afraid of the future. Just like how I was standing outside earlier looking around thinking, “Life is so beautiful. Too bad I won’t be here this time tomorrow evening.” Now I’m afraid something bad will happen and I see myself in third person point of view of how others see me and will think about how they were just around me the day before. (Today) and now it’s “I’m gonna die in my sleep and not wake up. So I have to stay up now.” And picturing my mom coming in to the room because my baby won’t stop screaming because she is hungry and I am deceased on the couch where I fell asleep.

Do you see this? Horrible thinking and now feelings.. Does anybody get thoughts and feelings like this? I had a doctors appointment and my GP is going to push the therapy, so I can get in quicker.

[Agora1]

anon, I do see how your brain has been taught to respond to the negative thoughts

and lies it is told. It's a habit that you've developed. But habits are able to be broken.

I remember seeing a video on YouTube on "Brain Washing" . I'll see if I can find it and

send you the site name.

You need to get yourself together for your sake and the sake of the baby.

She can sense that mommy is stressed out. I wholeheartedly agree you need therapy.

This is yet another path in life that you are on. Whenever there are changes in our lives,

it is stressful. I hope your doctor is able to push for an earlier appointment for you. xx

[anon99 in reply to Agora1]

Thankyou. I’m trying... I really really am. It’s just hard. Whenever I’m talking and goofing off with others I feel normal and happy. Then it comes crashing down within seconds.

I’d love to see the video.

[Agora1 in reply to anon99]

I've just gone through YouTube

What you are doing is called "Catastrophizing" Blowing up negative thoughts

until you start to believe that they are real. That these things will happen to you.

I found 3 that may help get you started in thinking more positively.

On YouTube type in "How to stop Catastrophizing" by Barbara Heffernan

Another one is "Catastrophizing Therapy in a Nutshell"

And third.. "Simple Tricks to Stop Negative Thoughts" by the Anxiety Guy

(he was one of our own on the forum who branched out to help others on YouTube)

I'm sorry that I don't know how to give you the site with just a click. I hope this helps xx

[anon99 in reply to Agora1]

Thankyou, Agora. it’s ok, I will look them up. Anything helps. I appreciate you taking time out of your evening to help. x

[hardworker190 in reply to Agora1]

Have you overcome this?

[Agora1 in reply to hardworker190]

hardworker190, let's just say that I no longer allow anxiety to control me.

I have enough self training and resources behind me that allow me to gain

control the minute I feel a thought or a fear.

After all, we are human, life is unpredictable and so we will always be

challenged. But we can't live in anticipation of what may happen or we don't

live, we exist.

So the answer is "yes" my friend, I have overcome this. But know that each

day I practice my meditation and keep my breathing in check. It's an amazing

feeling once you know you are back in control. My best to you hardworker. xx

[hardworker190 in reply to Agora1]

On medication?

[Agora1 in reply to hardworker190]

Me? I got off 30 years of benzos 7 years ago and feel better for it.

There is a time and place for medication so I don't regret that. However,

the answer comes with more than meds. Therapy, self learning and most

of all acceptance of anxiety and not fear can do just as much as medication. xx

[hardworker190 in reply to Agora1]

They want me to get on Celexa which is a SSRI till I can get under control cause as of right now it’s consuming me! It’s scary to always feel like your gonna die

[Agora1 in reply to hardworker190]

Hi hardworker. Go for it. I am on Lexapro also a SSRI and it helps immensely

without the sleepy, dragged out feeling. (at least for me) It is very wearing to always

feel like you are going to die. I totally understand. You have nothing to lose at this

point. It may be just what you need to go forward and start living each day once again. Good Luck. Keep us posted xx

[DoggieLoverbon]

I completely understand. It’s like the thought of everything you may miss out on. How death is inevitable, no stopping it, no way to know how you’re gonna die. It’s scary as heck.

[MooreZhi]

I get the same exact thoughts I stayed up all night and still didn’t go to sleep it’s 8am I have my first therapy session tomar over the phone I really hope it helps it seems like everything going on in the world is actually making it worse and making me more startled I hope we get through this

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I'm there now. I understand completely

[anon99]

I thought I was crazy feeling this way.. I would’ve never guessed others feel the same.