Living & dying in my room from anxiety and depression.

[Gidget1]

I feel like that’s my future assuming I can hang onto my sanity.

I have Lupus & am on Cymbalta, Xanax, & 2 opioids.

I have had these problems since I was 17. So it’s not caused by the meds. I recently went off Zoloft with no noticeable change. I’m 59 now & don’t see any kind of future.

The big questions keep intruding-what’s the point of my existence? Why does anything matter?, etc. The BIG ONES. I have faith but it’s wavering & I’m fighting hard to maintain my contact with God. It’s really damn hard to believe that with all the people in the world that I matter.

Does God care about someone who doesn’t even care about themselves? I was raised with, “God helps those who help themselves”. Depression has taken away my desire to try.

I have a son who’s very sweet, but he’s a 30 yr. old guy (he lives with me & takes care of necessities for his room & board).

This is hard for him to deal with so he avoids me. And, he’s the only one I’m staying alive for at this point.

Please, I need everyone’s BEST advice or someone who could be a daily pen pal

I’m just hanging on.

Thanks.

[Bigbrook2019]

Hi of course you matter..we all do..I live this way but slowly understand anxiety a little ..it tares us down so bad. I fear walking away from my home in fear of collapsing ..I also won't be alone at home in fear of collapsing..it's a very vicious circle only we can dare to stop..can u walk alone..if so take a nice refreshing morning stroll with lots of positive thoughts( this is wot I would do if I could )

[Hidden]

God cares a lot. Even when we don't feel like He does. I cant say i know what your going through but my anxiety and fear has also caused my faith to waiver but I pray everyday, all day. Prayer is powerful. Just keep the fellowship with Him and i believe He will help you in some way. God bless you

[Gidget1 in reply to Hidden]

🙏🏻

[Gidget1]

Thank you. If you lived here we could force each other to get up & out 💖

How do you KNOW we matter?

[Hidden]

Hey i just seen your post and we matter because His word says so. He sent His only child to die horribly for us. Even after that loving sacrifice we still sin and slap Him in the face every day. But he loves us so much and is patient with us. I know how you feel i get like this too when i am down. God bless you im going to pray for you.

[Gidget1 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you.