This is a long post, sorry

[jandlinaz]

It's been a while since I've been here cause things WERE going pretty good. Now I have to get a colonoscopy because they found blood in a sample. I tell myself it can be any number of things, not to worry. Just like they thought my Mom was only anemic. She was sent to a hematologist and found out she had leukemia. I moved to be with her. I could talk to her. 2 weeks before Christmas she passed.

Now I have no one to talk to. I don't know anyone in this city. I don't even know how I will get to the hospital and back.

I'm once again outside my comfort zone. I get anxiety when ever I'm there (outside my comfort zone.) I get anxiety over anything. 2 month before I went on a vacation I had anxiety attacks about what to pack. I would wake up in the night, panting and panicking. I tell myself take your Xanax and Zoloft. But I just recently read an article that those are 2 medications that increase your risk for dementia. (ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articl... Now, of course, any time I forget where I put my keys I figure the dementia is starting.

[Agora1]

jandlinaz, I am truly sorry for the passing of your mother before Christmas. I know

how lost and alone you must feel out of your comfort zone. Now you must take care

of yourself. Your mother would have wanted that for you. You are right in that getting

a colonoscopy can help rule out the many issues that could cause blood to be found.

Stay positive. Get this taken care of soon so your worry and fears won't keep escalating.

As for you being prescribed Xanax and Zoloft, it is foolish to not give yourself some relief

especially right now going through your grieving. It doesn't mean you have to be on it

long term. It is not going to cause dementia with short term use. Your doctor knows

your health history and is doing what is best for you right now. Please take his advice

and continue posting on the forum. We will help you through this difficult time. xx