Checking in.

[destinymichelle]

I was almost making daily posts about how anxious I constantly am and I’ve noticed I haven’t made a post in awhile. How is everyone doing? I know the holidays are approaching and it’s a very rough time for many of us, myself included. I’m not feeling much better than I was a few weeks ago, but I’m trying and that’s all that matters! I went to visit with my family for thanksgiving, but not for long. My fiancé and I were only there for maybe 3 hours at most, but the whole car ride there I kept telling myself that it was a mistake and that I can’t handle it. I did get anxious and it was a hard day because it was the day my great grandma passed away a year ago, but I actually conquered my fear and did it. The other day my fiancé and I had his mother take us around to find a car and we were gone for about 5 hours and I thought I couldn’t handle that, but I did. Then today, my fiancé asked me to go into the grocery store with him and help him shop. I haven’t been into the grocery store in months since the last time I went into Walmart and had a very bad anxiety attack. The whole time in the store this morning I kept saying “I can’t do this” but I would distract myself or try to retrain my thinking into something positive. So, I just wanted to remind people that small steps are still steps. It’s okay to not be okay and it’s amazing to be proud of yourself even if you feel like what you’ve accomplished is small. I felt stupid at first for saying that I was proud of myself for doing things that I used to always do or for doing things that other people do on a daily basis, but we are not other people. We are ourselves and it takes one tough cookie to deal with mental illness and still keep trying. I hope everyone has happy holidays and praying that 2020 will be the best year for our mental health! 💕

[Agora1]

destinymichelle, that was quite a positive post you wrote. Every time you told yourself

you couldn't, you did it. If you haven't already, take a look at my profile in something

I wrote years ago when going through the same struggle. It's called "I think I Can"

We learn and grow stronger through all these experiences. I'm proud of each and

every step you take. Wishing you a beautiful Holiday and a great 2020. Hugs, Agora1 xx

[destinymichelle in reply to Agora1]

Thank you so much for all of your kind words, always ❤️ Hope you enjoy the holidays and hopefully this new year brings you many many blessings! Yes, it was very hard to keep pushing myself through it. I was ready to breakdown and give up (luckily there wasn’t many people in the store when we went in) but what counts is that I tried and I actually did it!

[hypercat54]

Oh well done. What an inspiring post. x

[destinymichelle in reply to hypercat54]

Thank you very much ❤️ I know I’m always talking about the negative, so I wanted to make a post that wasn’t so sad like the rest of the posts that I’ve made.

[Icanbeathis2016]

Great post hun. We are definitely sisters of the struggle. And yes we deserve to pat ourselves on the back for every small step we take.

Thank you for your well wishes and prayers too! My prayers to you as well and wishing all our year 2020 is the best to come ❤💙

[destinymichelle in reply to Icanbeathis2016]

Thank you so so much ❤️