Hey just opened an account on here to try and get some relief for anxiety/fear/panic and maybe depersonalisation but not sure if I have that! at the moment barley anything is working my comfort zone used to always be being at home watching a film that no longer works! I can’t keep still and I feel so ill I keep getting dry mouth can’t eat properly can’t sleep properly. it all started when it was a week until graduation and I had plans to move to a flat closer to work all of a sudden 2 days before I was suppose to move in I got this thought that the landlord was going to kill me and it turned out he was infact very strange, as moving out day can he made an excuse that his mum had suddenly fallen ill so couldn’t get to me and was always wanting me to move in at nighttime. I thought he was instantly not telling the truth, at this point I had to take all my things to the place I worked because I had to move out of my current property I just had this feeling that I wasn’t going to make it through to graduation that something was going to happen to me! Knowing I was waiting at my work he said he would set off because he didn’t want me being homeless anyways he didn’t show up and I then was homeless for almost 2 months I did graduate but these last couple have months have been hell at first I thought I was having a heart attack getting loads of symptoms couldn’t see my self living anymore all through this I was trying my hardest to work but it was so unbearable I just wanted to go back up home to my family I went to a therapist who suggested I get a stable place and she said I need long term therapy she thinks that I have ptsd but I’m not sure because I don’t have flash backs of that day it’s the thought of being partially right that the guy wasn’t all as what he seemed to be and I think I’ve got it in my head that I should have died! Finally I handed in my notice to work to go home once I got the date I just got this thought that I wasn’t going to make it to see my family the anxiety moved to my stomach and head no longer my chest and because it’s in my stomach it’s telling me it’s real it got to the point where I actually got fired from work because I couldn’t make it through the shift with out having panic attack as soon as I got sacked I paid a lot of money to get a taxi back home which was miles away to try make it when I finally made it home I kept looking at my surroundings that looked familiar but felt disconnected I look at my family and feel the same way and then I get sad because the thought of death then comes in my mind and stomach I feel like I’m not really here and I’m suffering so much i want to live and I want to feel comfortable again it’s awful I’m petrified! I also feel like researching it hasn’t helped because there’s people that have said they feel like they are dying and do and even just writing that scares me.
Sorry for going on I’m just so scared and need to find some comfort I plan to go to the doctors but can’t do that till I’m fully registered to a new surgery.
A strange question 
If I feel really strange and unhinged from anxiety, almost like I'm going to do something crazy, should I isolate myself and stay inside?
Strange attacks when I'm tired?
Minute-long episodes of fear, along with strange sensations. 
Who else feels like the unimportant friend? 
