Feeling so rubbish

[L1974]

Hi posted last week about this horrid anxiety working it’s way back into my life. One of my many problems when it comes to this is accepting what Im feelng is anxiety and not something much more serious. I truly don’t know how I have got out of bed the last week or so and functioned. My head is so sore it’s like it’s in a vice, my legs feel weak and heavy, I feel clumsy and spaced out!?! I’m not taking medication as it hasn’t helped in the past. I’m 45 have a young son who needs me to be on form and in good health. Why after months of feeling ok is it back with a vengeance?!?

[Icanbeathis2016]

I definitely understand your fears and bewilderment. It goes around and comes around again and sometimes feels and seems worse that before. Or as I like to put it, it comes back and I forget all about how it made me felt before so it all feels and seems new every time.

I too am trying to do without the meds. The first time I tried it, it didnt work and once I quit I never gave back in to it. And honestly dont want to.

But like you, it's just so hard to accept these scary symptoms as just anxiety. The "what ifs" are definitely in bold writing when it comes to this. And I know that makes it clear that it's just anxiety, but 'what if' though. Like seriously.

I wish us the best.

[L1994]

I just think it never goes away. I am back to this forum after 4 years. I truly understand how your feeling. I have a young daughter also and its a struggle to get your self through the day. I find my worst days are my days off work when my mind isn't occupied and it just wonders. I was on sertraline for 2 years they made me worse at first but got off them my self by weaning off them. What anxiety is it you suffer from I. E health anxiety, general anxiety?

[L1974 in reply to L1994]

Hi health anxiety I’ve just had a scare for breast cancer a few weeks ago which turned out to be ok. My mam died of it and my sister was diagnosed a couple of years ago. I haven’t got the hereditary gene but my mam was only a year older than me when she died. I think it’s down to that and unresolved post natal depression. Tried sertraline twice helped in beginning but when you suffer health anxiety the side effects outweigh the helpful part for me anyhow!! Even my eyes are drawn and tired I’m that tense atm. X

[L1994 in reply to L1974]

Yes I first was diagnosed with health anxiety 4 years ago now and it does get easier. We have times where we get set backs. Mines the same as yours as I have had a cervical cancer scare and the wait for colposcopy is just making me really anxious. You are not alone. This is the reason my anxiety has flared up other than that I was getting through my days with just having a few days of feeling down. It's not a nice feeling when u think somethings wrong. Do u get any symptoms or is it mainly worry in your head thinking somethings wrong then u believing somethings wrong and you going in to a panic that something has to be wrong?

[flaxxy703]

the return of the symptoms is not the return of the illness. it is just a temporary set back. for every set back there is a come back. worry does much harm and little aid.