So I had a cardiac treadmill stress test done today. I was so scared to do it. My heart rate was already 114 when they put the leads on. It calmed down to 93 before starting the test. My blood pressure was 162/114 before starting, they almost didn’t do it because my blood pressure was so high. (Side note, my bp is super elevated anytime I go to the doctor or my anxiety is up, normal bp for me 130/85.) I could only do 3.5 minutes on the treadmill, and even that was incredibly hard, I am morbidly obese. (I have lost 50+ pounds in the last 6 months though, so I’m working on it.) I went straight into a panic attack after stopping on the treadmill. So it was incredibly hard to calm down, even now 3 hours later I am still getting waves of adrenaline, panic, and sobbing crying. I had to stay longer then most because of my panic/inability to calm down. I did take an .5mg of Ativan about 1.5 hours ago and it eventually helped me come down some, but I am still anxious. I just feel so scared, I am drowning in negative thoughts. Like, what if I get a blood clot from the stress test, what if it damaged my heart because I had to work so hard, what if I have a heart attach from it, and especially: what if the results are bad.
I guess I am just in a fear cycle and was hoping to find someone who could relate or have positive thoughts to help bring me out of this.
💜Ash