Update on procedure... Terrible anxiety

[Khuneycu]

Just an update on my latest self induced health scare... Saw the surgeon today and he looked at my mole scar site and I asked if he thought it looked like melanoma. I was hoping to get a little reassurance but his reply was "I don't know. It looks a little strange but moles that grow back can look strange because they grow through scar tissue." Then he said something along the lines of well if it is melanoma hopefully we caught it early and this surgery is all you will need! I nearly hyperventilated right there on the table but managed to keep it together while he removed it. He then proceeded to tell me to try not to worry too much and I could have almost laughed even in my anguished anxious state of mind... If he only knew me. So I got multiple injections of local lidocaine and then he cut the whole thing out, stating he was going deep to make sure he got all the cells so it doesn't grow back again. I now have a two and a half inch incision and ten stitches and incredible soreness and a two week wait for the pathology report. I didn't think it was possible to be in a more anxious/terrified state than I was in yesterday but I proved myself wrong. I'm beyond panicked and I've never felt so powerless or out of control. There's literally nothing at all I can do about this except wait and hope and pray for benign results. Anxious friends, you've been such a comfort to me. Please continue to pray for me if you have time that I get only good news from these results. Thank you all so much.

[thyroidmom84]

I have had so many physicians say so many things the “wrong way” because they don’t no how sensitive and anxious I am. I once started insisting on a biopsy because I showed a physician something and they replied, “Doesn’t concern me that much.” That much??? Can you choose your words a little more carefully. Another doctor said once about a blood test that there was “nothing overtly concerning.” Why throw that “overtly” in there? Anyway, when my moles were tested I got the results back within 2 days (which they said was insanely fast), but I hope you get them equally fast so you can put this worry behind you. Thinking of you!

[Agora1]

Oh Khuneycu, I'm sorry you had to hear ill chosen words just before surgery.

Once words are said, it's hard to get them out of our minds but you need to give

yourself some breaks from your worry state. I know the feeling of being powerless

and out of control. However, I've learned to ask myself, will my worrying change

anything? Will it help me in any way? Rationally, the answer is always "no" and so

we must hold onto that frame of thought and breathe through the wait time. xx

[Dolphin14]

Surgeons aren't well known for their bedside manners.

He could have chosen his words better, that's for sure.

Waiting is the hardest part. All kinds of things go through our minds.

Continue to reach out for support as you wait the results.