Yesterday afternoon I had a lovely time. Went for a picnic with my partner in a well known park. It was great. we spent several hours there just whiling away the time and eating junk food. IE Sweets, Chocolates ETC. I don't usually eat them in that volume.
When we got home we done the cats as we normally world and chilled out watching TV.
I was pretty tired and drifted in and out of sleep. About 12.30am. I had a sudden rush of adrenaline. You all know what I mean...
Pounding heart, cold sweat, brain going a million miles per hour etc. I was sweating the rest of the night. I stayed quietly in bed and put my eye mask on but tossed and turned it was terrible.
I eventually got up about 8ish and feel so anxious. Cold sweating and scared. I was supposed to attend the last two sessions on a college course that was only 6 weeks long. I am not able to do that I feel so scared and stressed out and I am all alone until 8pm tonight.
I need to do something. I need someone with me.
I know this sounds dramatic but it is how I am feeling.