Hyperaware and Existence

[janeths466]

Hello,

Question for you all since I have not gotten my head around this. For years, I had the depersonalization where I feel like I am in an unfamiliar place even though I know where I am. It happens with friends and family, mostly triggered at night. This went away when I started working out and getting my life back.

Sometimes I would get panic attacks about my subconscious. Like me talking to myself freaked me out. And I would get all flushed and panicky after. Like I would overthink myself talking to my own self. Sometimes I felt like stranger in my body. Like I did not know myself. Of course I know who I am but it was a weird feeling. So disturbing. Now, I got it again this morning when I was overthinking again. Like I was so content with myself these past few years. But I started overthinkingn and felt this fear and emptiness of being hyperaware of my subconcious. Have any of you experienced it? How do you deal with it.

Like I said, I thought it was neurological. But it has been 8 years and it eventually got better with distractions so I just need advice.