My friend is mad at me. But I’m going to give a brief backstory before I explain why. So I’m a senior in high school which means college is on the horizon and I’m supposed to start looking. Well I basically have two options so I signed up for a tour on one. However the tour ended up not just being a tour, it was more of a group get together with meetings and such. That is totally more than I want. I just wanted a nice tour of the campus. Nothing else, nothing personal. Just reading about the activities sent me into a panic attack. So I told my mom I didn’t want to go and she told me it was no big deal and she’d cancel it. Well...she never cancelled it and that’s where this begins.
The other day I was talking to my friend and she told me she was going to the same thing. I told her that I’d signed up but decided not to go, I guess she didn’t hear that last part. This morning (day of the “tour”) I woke up to a message from her saying “hey saw your name on a name tag! Just waiting on you!” AHHHH. My stomach sunk. She sounded so excited that I was coming and I had to tell her that no I was not coming and she was going to be all alone! I texted her many times but she’s not answered me and the guilt is intense right now. I know I told her but I feel like I shouldn’t have said anything about even signing up. It’s just another prime example of my social anxiety making life hard for the people around me. #socialanxietygoals