So I’ve moved out…and the panic has set in.

[DemureRose]

So I just moved into an apartment with my friends today.

It wasn’t something I necessarily wanted to do and was excited to do, but it was something I felt I needed to do.

But now that my parents left and I’ve been able to relax…I’m panicking.

Why did I do this? Why did I think it’d be a good idea?

I’ve never been good at staying away from home. Even at sleepovers, I was the kid that went home in the middle of the night because she was home sick. That was me.

That same heart-clenching, stomach turning panic has set in and I find myself thinking how I desperately want my mommy.

I want to be back home. In my own bed. With my family all around me. With my precious cats and dog.

I want to go home.

Usually when I’d get like this I’d say “It’s okay! You’ll be home in the morning.” I can’t comfort myself like that right now.

Like I want to go home. I want to go home right now. Right right now.

[b1b1b1]

I'm not too sure what the answer is, so I will just mention a few thoughts that come to mind. First, I don't think therapists should try to influence decisions on major matters. Next, see how you feel in a few days or a week or two. If it still doesn't feel right to you talk to your parents and see what their suggestions are. How long is the lease you signed? If you continue to be unhappy work out arrangements to return home. Sometimes it is just best to follow your heart.

[lillyofthevalley37]

You must make your room your home for now as best you can make t look cosy with personal effects ie nice duvet cover and cushions , put a calender up on yor wall and mark the date you will go home to visit - are you at university ? Why did you move out ?

[DemureRose in reply to lillyofthevalley37]

I’m a college student yes but I only live 10 minutes from campus so I stayed home my first year.

Then my friends needed a fourth person for a 4 bedroom apartment so I said yes.

[lillyofthevalley37 in reply to DemureRose]

If you don't like it just move back home it would be cheaper ?

[RenYellow]

I also just recently moved out to live in a dorm. I completely understand how you feel. I miss home and my mom and my cat and the homesick feeling hasn’t gone away. I will say that making my room more comfortable with decor and blankets, more ‘me’, has helping in making me feel like this is my space.

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So go home until you're ready to leave. Why cause anxiety? You are just simply not ready.