How did this happen to me.

[tppppppp]

I used to be a fun guy. I used to laugh and tell jokes. I used to be the person everyone wanted to be around. I used to be sane. What happened to me? How does this end up? What's my end game? How did I get like this? I'm a shell of who I used to be. Anxiety and depression have ruined my life. I'm not the person I used to be. Pls. Someone, anyone, please tell me what to do. I'm lost. Please. I beg you. Ok, thanks for listening anyways. Sorry. Just wanted to vent.

[Krn210]

You’re still the same person T. You’re just a different version of that person now. You got here because things change with time. The end game is that you are ok, you will continue to be ok. All is well. You are strong, loved and needed.

[crazychkinwa59 in reply to Krn210]

Well said! Tyler is really hard on himself. Makes me sad as I know he is a great person!

[Hidden]

Hey. I can identify with the feelings you're describing. Sucks big time. I have felt like this for much of my life. It's wise to decide what you want to do. Nobody else can tell you what you are, or what you should do. Its your time here on Earth, to learn, transform and do it your way. Growing pains are painful. Finding a sense of self difficult and long process and it can also be enjoyable. I won't tell you what to do but I do suggest you write down things that are important to you, things you enjoy, want to do. You may not be able to think of much but write something. Now plan how you're going to get on with whatever that is. Focus on that for now, get life moving and everything else will fall into place as you focus on positive action. My bipolar is severe and it hinders me on a day-to-day basis. I no longer have any social interaction whatsoever, but that's how I remain more balanced! It sounds horrible and most people could not live like me but it's just the way that I have adapted to survive. Remember this is just a period of your life, things will change, hell, they may even change for me. The important thing to do is focus on what you enjoy. Don't compare yourself to anybody else. I focus on the few things that I enjoy. When I have no enjoyment in anything, that's when I get psychiatric help because that's what is appropriate when I become that depressed. Think of the good and if you can't think of any good, take what you can from what I've written. Read it in a different mood. It's all here.

I wish you only well. 😎

[Cat33]

You ARE the same person it's just your body has got overloaded with stress just like if you plug too many plugs in a socket

The answer is relaxation and a different way of thinking

You cannot be relaxed and stressed at the same time If you think about it if you drink a couple of glasses of alcohol you will feel relaxed your symptoms will disappear you will feel good What has happened to you ? Nothing except you have relaxed Now obviously you don't want to use alcohol to make you feel better but you want to achieve that same feeling

Dr Claire Weekes on You

Tube her words are fantastic and so true about thoughts

The Dare response by Barry McDonnagh is a good book

Mindfulness courses are amazing

Keeping a diary is very helpful

There are loads of relaxation videos on YouTube and so much information on anxiety flight or fight etc

I'm guessing your depression comes from feeling anxious and missing the old you ?

You can and will get back to your old happy self just be kind to yourself take it day by day there will be bad days but they will soon be overtaken by the good ones

Wishing you all the very very best

[tppppppp in reply to Cat33]

I bought the book. Thanks. I'll let you know.

[Cat33]

That's great I'm sure you will find it a help

[SirGrits]

Hey tpppp... hang in there man. Your post really resonates with me. I'll share a short tale, mine. I'm 42 and have felt the effects of anxiety for about the last 7 years. My theory for me is that I've always been anxious and over these last 7yrs the symptoms manifested to such an extent I became aware. I definitely was funner/happier in my ignorance, but I wonder if I was healthier. Who can say, but here we sit. Of the 7yrs of "awareness", the last 4 have been pretty good. My main struggle is during stressful times. I think to struggle with stress is human, but still not cool right. Anyways tp, prayers & God speed.