Obsessive thoughts about death

[Staciel]

Guys do you have these thoughts and see you able to overcome it?

I don't understand why are they chasing me?

[JAYnLA]

I've come to think that fear of death may ultimately be underneath all anxiety and depressive issues. Perhaps we focus on them so often because we are trying to face them down. I know that for me, I have gone through periods where I thought I was 'suicidal' but I wasn't. I was actually TERRIFIED that my anxiety would eventually lead me there - meaning, I didn't want to do it at all.

[Clarrisa]

A therapist once told me people (in general) can feel their greatest sense of frustration when things have (actually) improved for them. Come to think of it that may well be what has been setting me back the past couple of days i.e. frustration stemming from recent improvement.

[Hidden in reply to Clarrisa]

You know what this is so true.

[Staciel in reply to Clarrisa]

How interesting! Never thought this way

[Autumnsa]

Thoughts of your death? Or other's?

[Staciel in reply to Autumnsa]

Mine. And it makes me scared.

[Autumnsa in reply to Staciel]

Suicidal thoughts? Or just thoughts of dying in general?

[Staciel in reply to Autumnsa]

No, not suicidal. Thoughts about death in general.

[Autumnsa in reply to Staciel]

What about death makes you anxious?

[Staciel in reply to Autumnsa]

The fact that it exists. And I always feel my limit, that my time is defined.

[Autumnsa in reply to Staciel]

Oh okay. So your like just afraid of dying in general? I use to be the exact same way. My mind would try so hard to comprehend it which would cause me to become even more anxious/panicky.

Everyone dies.

Part of life.

[Staciel in reply to Autumnsa]

Yeah, but still. This thought is always somewhere in my brain.

[Autumnsa in reply to Staciel]

And honestly thats totally fine. Are you scared to die or something?

[Staciel in reply to Autumnsa]

Yes, something like this. I guess it's all due to anxiety.

[Autumnsa in reply to Staciel]

It scares you, and that's what anxiety feeds off of.

[Staciel in reply to Autumnsa]

And that I know )

[Autumnsa in reply to Staciel]

It's gonna get better for you. Do you take any medicine?

[Staciel in reply to Autumnsa]

No, I don't. I only drink calming tea and such...

[Autumnsa in reply to Staciel]

Seems like it's not doing such a hot job. I dealt with it alone for 2 years then i couldn't take it anymore and got on medicine.

[Staciel in reply to Autumnsa]

Actually it's not the 1st time I deal with anxiety. I took medicine once, but it had sonevdide effects and I said no no no

[Autumnsa in reply to Staciel]

I gotcha. But keep looking up. It'll get better.

[Staciel in reply to Autumnsa]

Thank you!

[Blondegirl]

I have the same thoughts chasing me 2. Some days are fine, for example I have been up since 1am with panic and these thought have been going around my head for hours.

I try to stop the thought and don’t think about it but it just comes back again which is horrible.

[Clarrisa in reply to Blondegirl]

Are you having trouble falling asleep or waking up from sleep? I am waking up too many nights & finding it difficult to get back to sleep due to anxiety. It was recommended I leave the bedroom & do something mundane & boring (This is easier to do now that spring has come & the house is warmer at night). Then return again when sleepy. Some nights I do not succeed in finding boring enough things to do ...

I was also given some mindfulness meditation CDs to use but haven’t lined up anything yet to play them on. I struggle with motivation to avoid rest during the day, exercise more, eat better, wind down activities sooner before bedtime etc. This entails just a few lifestyle adjustments to say the least ...

[Blondegirl in reply to Clarrisa]

No I can usually go to sleep ok! It’s just the waking and as soon as I wake I’m anxious and I get up and go downstairs. Last night I went to bed at 11pm and was up at 1am and been up since! I do do some mindfulness meditation. I find the mornings so hard. Have currently been off work for 9wks.

[Clarrisa in reply to Blondegirl]

I feel better already I’m not losing sleep thinking it is mainly me as I was ...

[Gambit62]

this post might give you some ideas/answers

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[Staciel in reply to Gambit62]

Thank you!