Sadness

[masa2333]

Hello everyone.

I’ve been feeling really down these last days. Just a lot of sadness and hate towards myself. I hate myself for who I am right now. Not able to stay alone, not able to go to college, not able to be good for the people around me. I binge eat on sweets then feel sluggish. I didn’t have much physical symptoms but my mind was chaos. Just wanted to share and get it off my chest.

[Matt3013]

You need to learn not to judge yourself so much and not to give yourself such a hard time, but instead appreciate the good you have. For example you commented a nice, warm and caring message on my post today. That is the sign of a good person. A kind soul. You need to recognise the good in yourself

[masa2333 in reply to Matt3013]

Thank you Matt, I appreciate it. It is just so hard to examine yourself objectively and conclude that you are a good, worthy person. I always had self issues but know they really do take a toll on me... thank you once again on encouraging words.🙏

[Kkimm]

Hi Masa

So sorry to hear you are feeling like this. I experienced horrendous anxiety and after around 18 months am almost fully recovered now.

You always have such caring wise advice for others I have noticed. I am sure you will recover.

Do you still struggle with sleep, if you are not against meds to help I can let you know what I did to over come my sleep problem within a few months but we are all different so it may not be that easy for you. I do however think that we can be too afraid of sleeping tablets such as zopiclone because they are very addictive. With very careful and limited use when I needed it, I no longer need meds at all for sleep but will use them for jet lag in a way I never would have before. It is so helpful to have a great nights sleep and not suffer the way I used to but know I will probably never need to resort to them unless on another long haul holiday.

Really hope you are feeling better.

Kim

[masa2333 in reply to Kkimm]

Hello Kim and thank you for the kind words, means a lot. I’m so glad that you feel better! I’m happy for it and at the same time it gives me hope that I will feel better too!

I just try to be helpful and there for people in need as much as I can because I know how hard it is to feel lonely and like no one understands you. I don’t want anyone to be in that place, especially if I can understand and say a word or two from personal experience and knowledge.

I do still struggle with sleep, I can’t fall asleep at night, and I in fact already do take meds, I take Seroxat and Xanax in the morning and then Xanax again before bed to help me relax...I should se psychiatrist next week and then I was thinking of asking her if something could help. I took Bromazepam also and it didn’t help so she switched me to Xanax.

I haven’t heard of those pills (zopiclone) but I will surely check and see if it fits with my other medications! Thank you on advice.

Wish you all the best!🙏

[Kkimm in reply to masa2333]

Hi Masa

Glad to be of help. Zopiclone is a strong sleeping tablet and it did the trick for me along with making sure you relax before bedtime etc.

Good luck

Kim