So some back story:
I had my gallbladder out 3 months ago and I had constant nausea and loss of appetite and vomiting. I haven’t been able to work at all during this. Fast forward 3 months. Now my nausea only comes at night, I still have extreme loss of appetite, and now I have severe insomnia. Some nights I don’t go to sleep at all, but I sleep during the day. my GI doctor has ran all kinds of blood tests and I even had a upper endoscopy done and everything is coming back normal.
I have been anxious before but was never diagnosed and I was never this bad. I’ve always been a worrier. My GI hasn’t came out and said it, but I think she thinks this is anxiety related. Yesterday at my appointment she put me on 7.5mg of Mirtazapine at bedtime. She said this medicine can relax the stomach nerves so I don’t feel nauseous and it will help me sleep and it’s a appetite stimulate which I need as I’ve lost 25 lbs in 3 months. I barely eat, only soup, crackers, pretzels, canned chicken, rice, water, Ensure clear, and Gatorade. I have to force myself to eat a lot, but I get full so easy. I feel sad a lot, I sleep a lot during the day, and every night after the sun sets, I feel low, I snap at my husband and kids even though I know they are trying to help. I do nothing but cry for hours on and off. I just stay in bed, don’t want to go anywhere cause I’m afraid I will feel sick even when my nausea is at a minimum. I only have left the house in 3 months to go to doctor appointments or to the hospital ER. My heart races on and off. My doctor has even seen it at my appointments and she asks me if I have heart problems which I don’t. Christmas is coming up, and I don’t feel like celebrating. I just feel hollow and dead inside. My husband said he understands what I’m going through, well no offense he has no clue. He doesn’t have to go through everything I have. He said I have to go back to work soon as we are struggling on just his income. To be honest I’m scared to go back to work. I’m scared I will start feeling sick. I want to curl up in a ball and hide from the world
I just don’t know what to do anymore.