Feeling like a failure to reach goals

[Alis6552]

I feel like I have been trying to quit smoking for years. I just turned 30, I have tried the patch the lozenges, gum, laser accupincture, cold turkey and somehow I always go back. I also have horrible health anxiety so go figure makes no sense that I smoke. I guess it’s also like a compulsion from my anxiety/panic disorder? I worry like crazy when I smoke that o will get cancer and what if I can never stop doing this? Yet somehow I keep slipping, I feel like such a failure but the urges are so strong! I want just one but it’s never just one. Also I have health concerns as I have stomach issues, I’ve had an ulcer, gerd, gastritis, and sept 2017 had my gallbladder out. I have digestive issues since then and need to lose weight, atleast 30 pounds. My drs get on me so bad and want me to do a low carb diet. I am so addicted to sugar! So it’s like if I’m quitting smoking then I am eating icecream and cheating on my diet Becusse I need something. Or I’m on the diet not cheating but smoking. I feel pathetic like I have no willpower because time goes by and I feel like I make no progress Becusse here I am after trying for years yet still smoking and still overweight. And I huess the depression I have doesn’t help, I try not to make excuses but I just feel so tired often that I don’t feel to excercise after work etc., I’m just exhausted at the end of the work day. Does anyone else with depression and anxiety feel like they have a harder time with these types of goals? It’s hard to stay positive when I feel I keep messing up. People have told me to not beat myself up but the thing is if I don’t take this seriously I’ll have cancer, I’ve been smoking since 16 years old or I’ll be pre diabetic because of my weight. I’m always worried I’m not healthy and worrying about my health. Any insight or tips from others who have went through this would be so appreciated!

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I think there's also a page for people who are trying to quit on this site

[Alis6552]

Oh cool thanks, I will try to find it. Thanks!

[Anxc]

Hi I know exactly how you feel I also have depression and anxiety and just cannot give up smoking! I also have insulin dependant diabetes! I am quite a bit older than you so have been smoking far longer! I am going to a stop smoking meeting next week and hoping with the help of others can give it a go!! Will let you know X fingers Anxc.