Biggest Anxiety I've Ever Felt

[Djlove]

Hi all

I'm writing this for any advice for those who may have felt similar and just to put a voice to what is consuming my mind.

I thought I was getting a handle on everything (I have had anxiety and depression most of my life to varying degrees) and my anxiety was actually starting to reduce for the first time in months but I seem to have relapsed (which is also antagonising my depression). This hasn't been helped by being involved in a small accident at weekend.

I have done the ring around on a lot of the physical symptoms, I've been to the cardiologist because of palpations, had chest xrays for the shortness of breath, all back fine, so now the doctors think everything is associated with my mental state! I am currently in counselling but don't think it's going so well so looking at changing that.

I literally cannot stop worrying about anything and everything, I am also constantly replaying all of the bad things I have done in my life. I can't seem to find a quiet spot to centre myself that it's literally making me feel sick. I hate that I have bad mental health and feel like I just only ever effect everything badly as stuff just seems to go wrong and I make stupid choices.

Thanks for listening. Hope everyone has good days.

[Scaron13]

I totally understand how you feel. I just want to live and not obsess over

EVERYTHING. It's consuming me. I am on Zoloft 75mg and still miserable. I pray alot there has to be a end in sight for us

[Djlove in reply to Scaron13]

Thanks for the reply. I think consuming is a very apt word! I've never been on medication yet but am debating whether to try and see how it goes because I can't seem to get a handle on myself through all of the none medicinal routes.

[pink83737]

hi i am currently battling the same thing as you aka the thoughts of all the bad things you done its not a good feeling at all but remember we are all here for you. hang in there x

[Djlove in reply to pink83737]

Thank you for your kind words. It's most definitely not a good feeling is it! How do you manage it? I am here for you all too!

[pink83737 in reply to Djlove]

i tell myself that I'm human and i make mistakes too, life is about making mistakes to learn and grow from them

[Djlove in reply to pink83737]

Thank you pink. This is what I keep trying to remind myself.

[pink83737 in reply to Djlove]

Its so hard it seems like the mind only wants to remember the negatives and not the positives.

[Scaron13 in reply to pink83737]

I do the same thing. I try so hard to be positive but everything always seems to go wrong and now I live in fear