Weird paranoia

[plushiesaremyjam]

I’m having a weird bit of paranoia right now. Over the past month I’ve had this friend who lives in Quebec (I live in the US) and we talk all the time on the phone. But my mother hates the possibility that I have online friends (I’m 18 but she’s had the issue with online friends for years) and the other day while talking to my friend I thought “huh. I hope mom doesn’t think I’m talking to myself in my bathroom” so I went out and told her that I’m talking to my friend. And after that the idea popped in my head “huh wouldn’t that be interesting if he WAS just a figment of my imagination?” And at That moment I realized. I could actually be paranoid which could also mean I’m psychotic. I know it’s a long shot and I’m over thinking all of this but my health anxiety is super strong right now and I’m scared that I’m going crazy. Like I have schizophrenia or something. Of course I know that my friend is real, I only thought of him being not real because it sounded like an interesting thing to write about

[jkl5500]

If I read your post correctly, all you did was think "What if..... something was a certain way".

People have "What if.." thoughts all the time. Authors of fictional books make up entire imaginary worlds!

I'm not a therapist, but in my opinion you're overreacting to all this.