Why do I have to feel this way about crying....

[Midnightwolf1]

Lately, I've been struggling and its hard. I haven't cried since Oct of last year. Any time I feel like I'm going to cry I always degrade myself for it, like calling myself weak, petty, pathetic, etc. Buy if anyone else cries and they I know of it then I think, 'wow they are pretty strong to cry in public, I can't even cry behind close doors.' I've been feeling like I'm getting weaker also. Idk tho anymore... I feel like I can say anything on here since I can't really talk to my friends anymore..

[DeeM3]

Don’t hold it in. We all cry-it’s like a valve that relieves pressure. 🤗

[Fearoffear]

It is a big calm down for me. If someone's home and I need a good cry I go in the bathroom put on my playlist turn on the shower and cry. If I feel like I am too anxious sometimes it's the only release that works in a quick fix. I thought the same way as you until it became too much and I broke down in an ugly cry in public. Strangers looked some asked if I needed help and I fled to the car and when it was over I didn't die. I never had one in public again because I will cry sometimes before I have to go shopping just to calm my nerves. Sounds strange but it really does work sometimes. Good luck and let out a big ugly cry and feel the calm afterwards. *Gentle hugs*

[Agora1 in reply to Fearoffear]

I care xx

[Midnightwolf1 in reply to Fearoffear]

Thanks, it make me feel better about the crying... and knowing there is someone else out there that has or does feel this way