Hi! I'm a newbie to this forum. I have been a member for a while but have never posted anything. I find comfort in coming here and knowing that my symptoms are relatable to so many of you. That I'm not alone.
So here is my story, my life my struggle, however you view it.
Last June 2017 I had a really bad panic attack, which seems to have lasted for days and months off and on. I went to my gp, I had a full panel of blood work done. Everything was fine. I told him that about 12 years ago I had the same symptoms and my previous Dr. Prescribed me xanax for 14 days, and it worked really well with calming me down. Didnt have any intrusive thought that would cause me anxiety or get stuck. Actually I was able to manage my anxiety for 12 years with no medication or therapy. At that time I had a scary thought. I could dismiss it almost immediately. So this Dr, just said you have anxiety. He did not label it as Gad or Ocd, or panic or any other specific form of anxiety. Never the less, the medication helped alot. I have never taken any medication for anxiety previous to this.
Moving forward, I went back to my now new gp and he also said you have anxiety. In September however I started having an intrusive word that constantly repeats in my head. I mean around 50 times a day or more. It's still there today. It has come and gone but mostly stays. Is this just a tired mind? It's really draining some days and causes alot of anxiety. I still go out and walk almost every morning with my dog and still visit and socialize with friends an family. Ive been doing some self help and reading alot about how to reduce the frequency of this horrible thought. But its not working very well. I do not take any medication for my anxiety. My dr asked me if ive heard of SSRI'S which I haven't. So ofcourse i googled what these medications were and discovered they are used for many things.
So my question is should I go back to my gp and ask him to actually diagnose me and get the ball rolling with some medication and/or maybe therapy? I've never had therapy either. Im not looking for reissurence, I'm looking for some input in what I should do. Im scared to actually go to the Dr and tell him what I have been struggling with for the last 6 months. This has never happened to me before, this stuck thought issue. Can stuck thoughts or words be caused by GAD? Ive read alot of posts on here where members say amxiety is anxiety. I dont want to label anything, but it seems that if maybe I had a diagnoses I would feel a little bit relieved. That way I could move on into treatment.
I've read alot about Ocd and seems to fit my symptoms exactly. Any input would be greatly appreciated.