Lost another job because of my anxiety and derealisation.

This is what happens every time. I go into a new job feeling okay and then eventually my anxiety and derealisation get bad again to the point where I cant physically or mentally function. This will last about 2 or 3 weeks. Just long enough for me to lose any job. Ive tried explaining it to employers. Ive tried "pushing through it anyway". Every single time I think Im getting better it gets worse. Doesnt matter what meds I'm on, doesnt matter what therapist Im seeing, doesnt matter how much im sleeping or exercising or how well Im eating. It always, always comes back and ruins everything Ive built again. I have tried ignoring it. I ignored it for 2 years but it stayed and even got a lot worse. I guess ill be like this forever. Ive accepted that I permanently damaged my brain from smoking weed when I was a teenager. Even though everyone else I know is fine and working and going to school and taking every average day for granted. I will never be able to do that. I will never be able to live independently. No matter how good it gets it always will get worse again. Can I give up now?

[Anxiousjy]

So sorry to hear this. Are you taking any medication? And no this will not last forever. I too suffer from derealization. But I think my mind got used to it that it doesn’t bother me anymore.

[rachel913]

Oh no.. I'm so sorry I can relate entirely. While I'm not sure if I have derealisation, I have extreme anxiety. I have been employed for almost two years. Pushed myself to get a job. It started yesterday and beforehand I was extremely dizzy, i was puking, my heart was racing.. the whole 9 yards. I lasted for a few hours before I quit. I can't seem to do anything normal without my damn mind/body connection getting in the way. I know that set backs suck, but you can absolutely get back to where you were again. Just know that you are not alone and we may absolutely NOT give up as much as we may want to. We are put on this path for one reason - because we are strong. We are fighters. We don't give up and we WILL overcome this at one point in our lives. Keep on being positive, as hard as it is. It will not last forever, it just can't xx