Just to let you all know and please trust this comes with the best faith, Sites like Healthunlocked, patient, webmd etc gave me short term reassurance.
But if you keep coming back here to hear you're going to be okay you're just igniting in yourself a new safety behaviour that yes I cannot tell you how great it feels in the short term that you're not alone, and that you're reassured you're going to be alright you're not actually fighting the devil within.
you may not feel strong enough mentally, physically or emotionally to fight this right now. and although what you're going through no matter how great or small feels uncomfortable IT'S HAPPENING. and unfortunately theres no quit fix to stop it immediately.
It will keep coming back as long as you seek reassurance.
The minute you face the reality that this is just anxiety and stop seeking for answers that it could be something life threatening or worse and start telling yourself that this is the predicament I am in and I can't do anything to change it. FIGHT IT YOURSELF and if not fight it just accept it (close you're eyes and imagine you're and log in the ocean and that the waves are everything you hate about anxiety washing over you)
No matter how much you long to wish for your former self or for when times were simpler, the honest answer is that you're never going to be that version of yourself again.
But one thing I can tell you you are going to be after you put yourself on the path of recovery ( because only you can put yourself there) is that you're a human being that has learnt from all this you have been through and you may feel/think/do things today that once made you anxious but they won't affect you in the same way.
But please understand that okay if you're new to anxiety then yes please come to this site because people here have experienced what you're going through and yeah once or twice that reassurance is okay. But don't continuously seek it.
If you can't afford therapy - buy a self help CBT book before you see a therapist try to understand CBT even if you take non of it in (especially if you're in a geography where healthcare and meds and therapist aren't readily available)
YOU WOULD BE SURPRISED FORM THE STRENGTH AND RESILIENCE OF YOUR MIND.
Plus if you were to read a book about anxiety CBT in moments of panic it will really bring you into the present moment, which helps massively