I hate anxiety

[Hightemplar34]

Hi everyone I've been in an anxiety state for a long time now and lost my job in 2016 because of it. I have muscle spasms all over my body terrible tension headaches where I feel like I'm going crazy and restlessness. I get paranoid that or people think I'm crazy or a psycho. I start a job in two weeks and I'm scared and terrified out of my mind. Everyone tells me the job will make me better but I'm not sure. Also I'm bipolar and worried I'll have an episode and everything will get really bad and I'll try and hurt myself. I have thought about working from home cuz at least I'll be in the safety of my home where I am not socially anxious. Please help! Will this ever go away? I worked for 8 years with no problems and was happy. I get worried I will die soon sometimes. I have a new nephew and I need to be around for him and my friends and family.

[Hidden]

You said it you worked 8 years being happy and no worries , you will get back to this and better its an illness and some people get over it months and some years, you will get over it and you will laugh at your self , 7 months ago i was shaking i used to wake up 3 times at night couldnt write an exam paper without feeling ill pass out or have a really bad stomach ache and now all this is gone , im not 100% cured but id say 80% i just have a speedy heart and bad thoughts still but not 24/7 , did you try medications?

[Jwilcock in reply to Hidden]

Hi Sara, you said you suffered from shaking. I’m having problems with this & it’s upsetting me. My body feels like it’s shuddering but also my hands shake & my children are noticing it which bothers me. Did you have anything like this?

[Hidden in reply to Jwilcock]

Yeah i used to shake and even my teeth shake and my whole bodyyy to the point my fingers where moving i started medication anti-depressent switched few times but from the first pill it went Away all the physical symptoms my teeth sometimes shake but not everyday maybe once a week and for few minutes but yes it goes away and you feel your vains in your hands also like they are tight from shaking also it went away and with xanax it helped alot because the anti depressants takes time to work so theu put me on xanax at the beginning until they started working

[Hidden]

About dieing if u read my post before i felt that i will not make it till 2018 and look at me now , its all anxeity symptoms you either feel you will die soon and get so scared , or you feel you might hurt your self and die its all the hormones and it will go away !