So recently i feel down a bit because i was about to call off my engagement, and it was a day of crying , then we fixed things and everything was ok ,
But i started having i wanna die thoughts and i hate them because i dont want to die , i start having i might kill my self and i get scared , but then its not the first time i got it but i hate when i get them they are annoying and you dont feel safe and you have thought why just not die and whats the point of life and all this, i dont want to have these thoughts in my brain i just want them to disappear or i want to be watched or feel safe ? Do you get it?