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Lvictoria81

Dear Anxiety,

Youve made your presence very well known for such a long time. Please just go away. I'm tired of fighting you everyday. I'm tired of missing the old me. I'm tired of being tired. I'm tired of missing out on outings because of you. Why cant you just leave me. The chills are enough. The physical pain your causing is enough. Please go away.

Thanks now please go!!!!

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Get lost anxiety, we know you're a nobody. You make us feel bad but so what? We can still function despite the discomfort, so who cares? You're only a blip in our tired nervous systems, I know that now I've stopped fearing you your days are numbered. So bog off, you bully. You can't kill me, can't disable me, can't send me cuckoo. You don't even show up on an MRI scan, you're nothing, you're a nobody. Why be scared of a nobody?

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Lvictoria81 in reply to Jeff1943

Amen to that! Ive been ignoring this bully for so long but it seems like this bully is learning new ways to manipulate me and my feelings. Now it's got me feeling like I need to run for hours to release the adrenaline rush I'm getting constantly. Like I just downed a gallon of black coffee. It's ruining my moods and making me depressed causes me to be tired. Like that feelimg you get in your chest when your holding on a hard cry. All day long Ughh just go away!

Annoyingly it only goes away when we let it be, I'm new at acceptance therapy and it's incredibly hard but it's true, the only times/days I feel better at all is when it's in the background and I'm not trying to force it away.

Don't get me wrong today was another day where I told it to FUCK THE FUCK OFF countless times.

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Jeff1943 in reply to Richy626

You're right, Richy, acceptance therapy is a hard ride and it takes time to quiten down our nervous system and make it lose its sensitivity. And time and patience is what we feel we don't have so many people read the book like Claire Weekes' 'Self help for your nerves' and they shout 'Hey, this book is written about me', I mean it's so reassuring, acceptance seems so logical, so they start and then 2 days later they give up because they're not cured. I say to you Richy and Victoria: it took months maybe even years to make your nervous system over-sensitised so why expect recovery in 48 hours? If to begin you only manage to 'glimpse' acceptance for a few minutes well that's a good start. Only when you've accepted all the symptoms to the point where it doesn't matter much whether they're there or not does anxiety disorder leave you, your nervous system pacified and back to normal. So read the book, watch Claire Weekes' short inspirational talks on YouTube and just practice, practice, practice. You can do it with patience and practice, just never give up because meds buy you relief for as long as you take them but only therapies based on Face - Accept - Float - Let time pass bring recovery and the return of your quiet mind.

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Lvictoria81 in reply to Jeff1943

I agree I was fine on the meds until I stopped taken them. It seems like my anxiety came overnight. Or maybe it didn't until I had my breakdown. I don't expect to be cured overnight but I want relief. The brain dog is annoying the mispronunciation of words the stumbling the rocking back and forth all need to end. It seems like every time I close my eyes I get anxiety shakes & chills like I'm freezing but I'm not.

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Lvictoria81 in reply to Richy626

Ugh can you teach me the ways of acceptance. I've been trying g so hard to accept but it's like it's not allowing me to. I've been doing so good but then I got shingles & went downhill It feels like. I'm back to the racing heartbeat the chills then hot flashes the chest tightness and the constant worrying feeling. I don't wanna be back on meds but I guess I'm going to have to...

Victoria, sorry didn't mean you expected to be cured overnight. To understand acceptance get it from the horse's mouth, search for Claire Weekes on YouTube and order a copy of her book that I mentioned from Amazon, you can pick up a used copy for next to nothing plus postage.

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Jeff1943 in reply to Jeff1943

Btw, in the U.S. that book has a different title: "Self help with your nerves".

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Lvictoria81 in reply to Jeff1943

I heard alot about that book. Does it actually help?

Search amazon.com for this book and read a few of the 500+ reader reviews. Over 90% rate it Very Good or Excellent and the phrase 'Saved my life' appears frequently in the reviews.

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Lvictoria81 in reply to Jeff1943

Ok I'll look into it. Have you read it?

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Jeff1943 in reply to Lvictoria81

I've read it about 10 times since 1974. Have you read Beevee's post 'Stop doing this to yourself', it's long but it's brilliant and its all based on the Acceptance method of recovery first developed by Claire Weekes.

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Lvictoria81 in reply to Jeff1943

I think I found the book I wish there was a way I can send it to you so u can tell me if it's the right one.... No I haven't read that is it on here?

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Jeff1943 in reply to Lvictoria81

If you're in the U.S. its title is 'Hope and help for your nerves' by Claire Weekes. Exactly the same book is titled 'Self help for your nerves' in the U.K. I've no idea why they varied the title.

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Lvictoria81 in reply to Jeff1943

Ok well I made a post & agora said it's the correct one so I ordered it.

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Jeff1943 in reply to Lvictoria81

You won't be disappointed, Victoria.

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Cwoods in reply to Jeff1943

Hello Jess ive been trying to find beeve's post how do you search for members? Think that post would be a good read for me.

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Jeff1943 in reply to Cwoods

Just go to the list of postings that opens when you open this forum and scroll down until you fing Beevee's post "Stop doing this to yourself", o.k. Cwoods.

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Lvictoria81 in reply to Jeff1943

Ok I'm going to look for it

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You are your anxiety

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Lvictoria81 in reply to Hidden

Apparently but Idk how to fix me

What are you doing for your anxiety to go away?

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Lvictoria81 in reply to Labanino

I just try to stay active but its like fighting a brick wall

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On YouTube there are videos on psychology. Watch some on anxiety and you will understand what anxiety is about and why your body does what it does.

Once you realise why and how, you will be able to help yourself

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Lvictoria81 in reply to Hidden

Ok I'll look into it. Last night I went put with my boyfriend and I felt no anxiety at all or even the chest tightness feeling. As soon as we were on our way home, BOOM I felt my chest again. Now all day today o feel it.

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You have something at home that troubles you ?

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Lvictoria81 in reply to Hidden

Sort of. Its just stressful everyday. The more I looked at my life the more I'm starting to understand. I think I'm have a hard time adjusting to a new relationship & lifestyle. Alot of things led me up to where I'm at today with the anxiety & depression.

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There is a lead up for most people with anxiety and depression but you weren't always like this and you won't always be like this.

Don't fight change, what you go through today will be your strength for tomorrow, go with it.

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Tjays what one as telling myself yesterday I'm done fighting it. I just want it to let up a little or these drs need to explain stuff more in detail. I wish I knew what was up with my chest cause the more i researched the more I think it's not the chest muscles tightening I tho k it has something to do with my asthma acting up.

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Labanino in reply to Lvictoria81

Active? Ok, this is my advice for everyone to eliminate/keep under control your anxiety. You need to work out, jog around, push-ups, etc. No alcohol or caffeine, go to bed early. Practice meditation because it works or yoga. Also, ***** breathing exercises *****, very important. NEVER, EVER go to a shrink and get medicated! because it is the equivalent of seeing the "check engine soon" light on your dashboard and pop the hood of your car and cut the cable to stop seeing the warning. Stop RUMINATING about the past and the future because it won't fix anything.

My panic attacks got to a point that I ended up in the ER three times. My palpitations got so bad that I thought it was the end. I haven't been on this site for two months because my anxiety is almost gone. In fact, I have been doing very good longer than that. Getting better requires lots of discipline and hard work. Good luck. Cheer up, you can do it!

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Lvictoria81 in reply to Labanino

Thank you this is day 3 now of feeling like my normal self

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