i feel like it’s too late

[harv_singh]

I’ll be 37 on Friday, 37 and still trying to beat my anxiety and depression, still looking for work, still terrified of everyone and everything, still dealing with siblings who remind me that I’ve screwed up my life, still wake up every morning petrified of what may or may not happen. Still contemplating if all this pain is worth it, I feel like it’s too late for me, I’ve failed to win this fight, I’m tired of being scared, feeling like an absolute failure at everything, I want to feel happy again so desperately, the voice in my head is screaming at me to end it, be done with it, but yet I’m still here. I feel like I’m fighting a losing battle and that ultimately I’ve left it all too late.

I’m sorry if I’m repeating myself but I feel like I’m trapped and there’s no one around to help me.

[Isaack]

Your not a failure. Don't lose hope. Just keep fighting!! I feel like this at times but there is more to life!!

[Jeff1943]

Harv, where you've been going wrong is in fighting your anxiety disorder. Fighting means more tension, more stress and that's what is keeping your nervous system in a state of over-sensitisation. Has fighting helped solve your symptoms? I can tell from your post the answer is No.

Now do the opposite and you will begin your recovery. First, stop fighting. Surrender. And prepare to co-exist with your symptoms FOR THE TIME BEING. You must ACCEPT the symptoms calmly and with the minimum of fear that you can. Constantly generating fear is what is keeping your nerves in their sensitive state. When you stop fighting, start accepting and generate less fear your nerves begin the recovery process.

Anxiety is uncomfortable but it's not lethal. Neither can it disable you or make you lose your mind. Its bark is worse than its bite - the power of anxiety is limited. But it's very good at tricking us into believing terrible things are going to happen to us. Muscular tension becomes heart disease, a cough becomes a tumour. Anxiety is a fraud and a confidence trickster and it is now exposed. Why fear something that is just the product of a blip in your nervous system?

So I say again: stop fighting your anxiety and start to accept it FOR THE TIME BEING. If you accept living with your anxiety you will soon live without it. For the complete story go to Amazon and order a copy of Claire Weekes' book 'Self help for your nerves'. It will bring you understanding, reassurance and will explain in simple terms how to recover from anxiety by accepting it.