First post on here and not sure how it all works but I feel as though I need to vent and ask questions somewhere... I am hoping someone will be able to help or advise in some way or another. It would really mean a lot.
So, I’ve been struggling with anxiety disorder for around 4 years now which has gone from full blown panic attacks the majority of the time, to now no panic attacks as such - just continual worry, self doubt, concerns, over thinking etc. However, the past couple of months have been unbearable. I just can’t seem to function like a normal human being should. I am so overwhelmed constantly by thoughts and worries. My job is very stressful and because of my anxiousness I tense myself up all day despite trying mindfulness throughout the day to try and counteract this affect and loosen myself up.
Therefore I am ending each day in a state of intense pain and also coupled with ongoing anxious thoughts, mind racing and I just feel like I can’t stop, relax or be myself anymore. I feel like I’m constant anxiety patrol to try different ways to relax and stop thinking rather than having conversations, fun etc with my boyfriend or friends after work.
I have recently been diagnosed with depression but tried taking citalopram with unpleasant instant side effects. I have been prescribed sertraline this week but I am too scared to take it after the effects the citalopram had. I just feel like I am running out of options of how to live a normal life. All I can think is, if this is how I’m going to be for the rest of my life, I don’t want to live it. And I do desperately want to snap out of that feeling. I used to be so happy and bubbly and I miss the old me.
Any thoughts or guidance, tips etc would be so greatly received x