I feel dreadful. I am anxious all the time. Everything is too much for me I CAN'T COPE. No one seems to take me serious when I say how I feel. I need to escape and get away. I feel like I am watching everyone including myself from behind a screen, nothing seems real. I am in physical pain too, my chest hurts with the panic attacks. My muscles ache because I am constantly tense. My head is messy with thoughts and noise but I can't bear the silence. I can't be by myself but I hate people being near me. CBT has finished and I am waiting for the high intensity course to be started but it's not helped. I am scared by my thoughts and just want everything to stop. Things that used to be so simple now seem impossible which frustrates me. I have panic attacks anywhere at anytime for seemingly no reason. I need this to stop I need to get away but there is too much weighing me down and tying me here.