I finally got an appointment with the endocrinologist after a 6 month wait. A growth on my adrenal gland showed up when I had a CAT scan and an abdominal ultra sound last May. I wake each morning (when cortisol levels are highest) shaking and fearful...of what I cannot put a finger on! It is awful to be "terrified" and unable to control it or reason out logic. My husband is going in with me to the specialist. I am terrified it could be cancer, and terrified I will need surgery. I realize that every day millions of people are hospitalized, and often for very serious issues. Here I am, a coward who cannot control her own thoughts. I guess I am just posting this to "vent". Has anyone else ever been terrified of going in the hospital but did get through it? I know I have the cart before the horse....I need to hear what the doctor says Thurs. but of course I'm already in "worse case scenario". Thank you for "listening".