Gift of Pain

[Hopefortoday]

I haven't had a chance to write about my feelings.. There have been a lot of stressors in my life that introduced me to the level of anxiety of the mind in which I scan my enviornment, get right into the future and try to control my feared outcomes. I learned this young and learned it well. After loosing two siblings to addiction, I became grateful for the anxiety/fear as it pushed me and enabled me to survive. I did not know another way yet as the fog lifts from my family of origin and I see the affects and feel the pain of my own wiring physically maybe its a sign that I need to think differently and not obsess or torture myself. I know what it feels to live mostly in my head with the stress than my anxiety gets physical then I fear the symptoms etc. Maybe its a gift to see that its my own thinking that gets me to that place to begin with. I will keep working just venting.

[Agora1]

Hi Hopefortoday. Venting is good because it can make you not only think out loud but see it in writing. I am very sorry for the loss of your two siblings. Maybe in a bittersweet way it made you realize that changes need to be made in your own life. Changes in your way of thinking impact the physical symptoms we experience and vice versa.

Good thinking on your part. Dissecting all the pieces of this puzzle eventually leads to a complete picture and healing. Keep venting, it helps. xx

[Hopefortoday in reply to Agora1]

Thank you so much your so wise