Today is today I guess

[Lifeless100]

Feel terrible. That is my announcement for the day. Perhaps it will change, perhaps it will get better...at least that's the hope anyway. A platform for sharing, an imagined audience who will read this and say "Hey, it's cool, I have a magic _______ that can take it all away". Obviously, this is not the case....but it is an outstanding dream that something so awesome could exist. Scan the app store for failures of the past...the app that said it would relax me....but instead made me worse. The diary that said it saves everything you enter...then crashes and all my shit was gone. The song from Marconi Union that was designed and promised to reduce anxiety....ok...that one kind of does help a bit. Used it on a plane when away on business.

So what now? The Pharos knew something I don't. Sand and time, steady yourself....it's bumpy from here on out today. Perhaps Sea Turtley will grant me some wise words.....and even help. Tom Cruise does not have these problems....

#Dianetics

[Agora1]

Lifeless100 and so life goes on, same old, same old. But we are the only ones who can make it different. You have the magic _____ that can take it all away. You have a life that many men would envy. A beautiful wife, family, fascinating job and Anxiety/Depression. Well 3 out of 4 isn't bad. You are intelligent as well as gifted as a music genius. You write songs, you sing, you let out your emotions with a song and with your writing. I don't see you withering away in a corner some where. I know the fight is there everyday. I know it can feel wearing and lonely, but if that is all we have to contend with, then we are lucky. Luckier than most people in this world who struggle each day to survive physically. We fight an emotional survival everyday in a cozy warm bed under a roof that protects us.

I always look forward to reading your posts. I remember the first time I saw your picture and post, my first impression was "what sad eyes"...Is that who you are? You are a brilliant writer, come to the forum more. Express yourself and let out your feelings. Maybe in some small way that will help. Take care of yourself. Life can be beautiful ......