Hi Everyone,
I'm currently on the road to recovery from a bad bout of depression, and coping with my anxiety simultaneously is proving difficult. I've also really been pushing myself to become more independent after realising I was hugely dependant on my boyfriend (who is SO supportive of me!!! he's amazing) which is REALLY hard.
My boyfriend recently went self employed, so is finding his feet in the world and taking as much/any work he can. I'm being as supportive as possible, helping him create invoices, giving him advice on how to save his money, pushing him to achieve his dreams and not worry about what other people think etc. even though I'm struggling to cope with us not seeing each other as much as I would like.
He's just messaged me saying he's been asked if he can work the panto (late November all the way through to January) (He works in theatres doing light and sound, which means he works twice as long as the show goes on, due to setting up and taking down etc) and it would be a lot of work for him, and a good money earner and would it be ok if he took it.
Of course I said yes, but as I was already having a bad day (mentally) I'm feeling more rubbish than ever, and I'm so anxious about the fact we're literally going to be SO limited on seeing each other for 2/3 months.
How do I help myself cope better with this? I feel like a horrendous angry psycho selfish girlfriend at the fact I'm resenting his work (and him a little bit) because he's going to be working all day when the Panto is not on in the evening and then all afternoon and evening on the days when it is, and every weekend. I'm really struggling to see any good in it. Please help me, I'm scared I wont be able to cope.