IM STILL ALIVE??

[Islande_King]

Id be lying if when I woke up a couple minutes ago that there wasnt a little bit of shock.

[ld724-g]

Why are you shocked? Did you take something ( pills) and think you would die during your sleep? Or are you just surprised when you wake up another day? Please get help. I've had depression since the age of 12, and have had anxiety for maybe 10 years or so, but it's been really bad the last couple years. I'm 55 now, so I have lifelong depression. Medication helps, and so does therapy. I'm still depressed, but I've tried going off my meds and that's when I can tell that they DO help. Plus I'm one of those who has to switch meds after a year or so cause they quit working (my Dr. said it happens in a small percentage of patients). It's a struggle, but I live for my children and two grandchildren. I lost a son a year ago, and that pain is the worst! I can't put my other two kids through that kind of pain again--not intentionally ( like killing myself ). I hope you find help. It feels good to vent too. This is a good place to do it.

[Islande_King in reply to ld724-g]

I dont even know why I was shocked but I was so surprised.

[Tempestteapot]

Hi, Islande King.

Mine goes something like this:

Awake: Oh, wow! I made it i'm still here!

30 seconds later: Oh god, why do I feel weird?! {{Cue weird vibrating adrenaline nastiness, with a side order of cortisol awakening response}}

2 minutes later: Oh c##p. Not another day of this ahead.......

Tis a cycle I'm not proud of - but it is what it is. I work on accepting it every day but it's tough, isn't it?

But this is what we all do here - we SURVIVE. And that means that we're stronger than the anxiety beast, as it hasn't brought us down yet nor never will, despite all its bullying tactics.☺

[Islande_King in reply to Tempestteapot]

Same thing.

Today was definitely a bad one, but survival is definitely the goal.