Hi everyone! This is my first post, but I wanted to immediately dive into my anxiety and my concerns that I've had recently.
I've had anxiety for as long as I can remember, from toddler to adolescent to adult. I've recently been focusing on how to cope with it enough so that I'm not missing out on all of the things I want to do. I am very adventurous, interested in other cultures, always wanting to explore and learn learn learn. But my anxiety always holds me back because I'm afraid that it will paralyze me like it has in the past.
I am currently applying to teach English abroad in a non-English speaking country. I fully understand the implications that come with being an anxious person in a country where nothing is familiar. I have been contemplating and preparing for this for close to two years. This includes becoming familiar with cultural differences, becoming familiar with the language, researching past English teachers' experiences, etc. I am not here to have people talk me out of this choice, because I know if I don't take this leap I will regret it and view it as a huge loss caused by my anxiety.
What I am interested in, however, is how others have dealt with being surrounded by unfamiliarity or if they have had similar conerns. While in college I studied abroad for a semester in Europe in a very westernized country with a good amount of English speakers. That particular experience was absolutely horrendous but mainly due to being at the darkest point of my depression (which will always be a part of me, but is not something that is a concern; meaning I don't consider myself depressed now, but I know how to catch it and work through it if I start showing signs again).
My anxiety affects my life here, at home, and I am currently discovering knew ways to work through it. I know it will get worse if my application is accepted and I move to a new country. I have a close friend that will also be teaching there and I plan on working to form connections with other expats even before moving (even though I'm very introverted).
I mainly would just like to start talking and connecting with others who are experiencing or have experienced similar things! Thanks for reading all of that!