Not fair.

[Wyominganxiety]

Over hearing your 6yr old daughter tell her friends that her mom doesn't have friends cause she's always scared is literally the most brutally honest, extremely heartbreaking, is there ever going to be a way out moment! I developed anxiety 6 months after she was born so this is all she knows I hope I can get better show her better

[Agora1]

Hi Wyominganxiety, you not only CAN get better, but you WILL get better. I feel I earned the name Agora1 because of having been Agoraphobic for 5 years. It was an unbelievable part of my anxiety journey. When others around me couldn't understand why I couldn't go out, I started doubting myself as well. What was I so afraid of that was on the other side of the door? I unfortunately didn't do myself any justice by finding people who would come to me. That included a doctor, weekly nurse visits, lab techs, ultra sound and phone therapy sessions. (which had started out as home visits)

Once I got to the point of having had enough of the 4 walls, the embarrassment as well as the put down by family and what was left of any friends, I decided to turn the world upside down and break through these walls of entrapment. I realized the fear was inside my mind and not real. I couldn't escape it because it was with me 24/7. I had to reverse my way of thinking using I CAN and I WILL. Getting rid of any negativity in my thoughts or language.

Slow small steps, never going backwards, always going forward, led me to where I am today. Free of Anxiety, Free of Agoraphobia and Free to be ME once again. You have taken that first small step by coming on this forum. We support each other in our daily struggles as well as celebrate the goals. Wyominganxiety, hoping you will find the key to unlock the door (literally) and step out into the world again. I'll be waiting for you xx

[Wyominganxiety in reply to Agora1]

Thank you so much I sit and rack my brain trying to figure out how I got to this point what made me this way, I can't figure it out. I have lost most friends and have pushed family away terrified to live life, the only thing that I can come up with is I got the mirena iud after I had my daughter literally 6 months later bam and going on 6 yrs now I finally broke down and went to the doctor she put me on paxil after 1 dose I had a severe reaction to it and she refused to try anything else or to even see me again!

[Agora1 in reply to Wyominganxiety]

Wyominganxiety, I have always felt that something in our lives prompted the predisposed anxiety gene we have, to surface. It could have very well been the IUD. It's sad when doctors turn their heads away from us, it just makes us seem more lonely and lost. First of all, Paxil is not the only drug out there that is used for severe anxiety. Finding a good psychiatrist as well as therapist may help give you options to what is available to you.

But also know that even though medication may be a bridge to getting you back on track, it is not a total solution. Finding other methods/techniques that will quide you through and help you understand the Mind/Body Connection will be the key to healing.

As you continue coming on the forum you will find books to read, CDs to listen to and my favorite using Meditation/Deep Breathing which allows me to stay in a calm state. We each respond differently to meds and techniques. Pick and choose what works best for you. You are never alone x

[Hidden]

You WILL get over it. It takes time and it's not easy but you will beat this.

Just try tiny steps each day. Take each day as it comes, small steps is the answer. I know it can seem like it's not going to end but it will get easier.

Don't spend time worrying about how you got like this, spend time thinking of all the good times before this happened. It's so easy to get trapped into the negative thinking that it's always going to be like this but it won't. Try to keep as positive as you can. Remind yourself how you used to be. As for doctors pffftt, I've found they have little idea what it's really like to have anxiety. It's ok reading about it in text books but unless you've suffered it, nobody really understands.

take care

[Wyominganxiety in reply to Hidden]

Thank you! I made a doctor's appointment to see another doctor in a bigger city where I live is very small and our hospital is known as a band aid station I'm completely terrified to travel the hour to this new doctor but praying they might know little more to help me

[Hidden in reply to Wyominganxiety]

I had to do that too, my local doctor was no help at all. I changed doctors and this one was much better, and helped with relaxation, positive thinking and some diazepam to use when things got tough.

[Wyominganxiety]

I'm really hoping to get back to the old me I miss that woman I was always smiling and laughing dragging everybody on adventures I hope this doc can get me back there again. It's depressing when as hard as it is to even get help and you have a doctor refuse I honestly for a while had it in my mind that's it I can't be helped this is the miserable life I'm doomed with heartbreaking

[Hidden]

Hello, I know!!! You!!! Can!!! Don't let this anxiety get you down! Take a deep breath and get ready to challenge it. It may be hard, everyone has these troubles. Take the time you need for yourself and enjoy the times you have with your children, don't be afraid to find friends/family to look after them so you can unwind!!