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[RyRywifey]

I feel so awful smh shaky, dizzy, impending doom like crazy!!!! Blurred vision on and off earlier smh, I feel like I'm going backwards. Now that I feel like this I've realized how well I've been doing for the past year. Now I'm starting to feel how I felt in 2015 when this all started, except now with new symptoms. Crazy thing is, I can't tell if this is anxiety or if something is really wrong with me. I'm I just really feel overwhelmed and terribly worried. I hate this. It's like I'll never be able to feel my happy fearless self I used to be again smh

[Lvictoria81]

Ive been this way going on 2 months now. This site has helped a lot. I'm going to seek professional help & hopefully that starts working. If you feel like there is something seriously wrong go to your doctors. It doesn't hurt & don't feel embarrassed by it. They hear these kind of things all the time. They are there to help

[Icanbeathis2016]

Hello again. Girl we are going through it, aren't we? I know the feeling. I feel the same way because these last three weeks or month it felt like how i was feeling the very first time i was going through this last year. And yes even it seems like new symtoms have presented itself and it makes me even more anxious. I found myself back a the doc about a month ago getting blood work and a ct scan again cuz i was having the worst of symptoms which in my mind i am thinking the worst of illnesses or diseases. Its seems i am back in the loop again and for a while i thought i was doing so much better and then bam it came back for me again. And its like this go round everything seems worse or either im thinking more worse and stmptoms are different.

[RyRywifey in reply to Icanbeathis2016]

Omg yes girl, damn why Is it like this for us right now??? I just went to the Dr the other day and now I'm waiting for my blood test results and I'm sooooooo damn scared because I've been having symptoms I've never had before and all I can think is the worst. Now I'm on edge if my phone rings and it's the Drs office with some abnormal blood work results. And I'm soooo afraid of getting bad news from them smh. But it's so bad now that I'm thinking of multiple diseases and illnesses all at once smh and am literally depressed. I can't function at all because of this. I'm so sad and down every single day from fear, now I don't even know if I should have gone in the first place smh what did you say caused you to be this way last year? I had a bad trip on MJ which made me have a panic attack for the first time, then a nervous breakdown 2 weeks after that because of something that happened in my family. But I wasn't the same after that panic attack to begin with. I haven't been the same since that weed induced panic attack. But now I'm getting to the point that it's hard for me to believe I have anxiety. Like how is it possible that anxiety could cause all of this?? Idk I'm scared af tho smh

[Icanbeathis2016 in reply to RyRywifey]

Girl i know what you mean. Now that its back on me again im so afraid. And every little thing i feel scares me. Its like i cant function either. Yes well the very first time all of this startef happening to me it just came out of nowhere with a panic attack then after my first one ive been on edge but it became worse and evolved into generalized anxiety disorder and health anxiety when something bad happened tp some one i know. It had me scared and thinking of death 24 7. Ans thats when it has been there ever since. I feel like gping back again myself to get blood work again cuz im still having wierd symptoms that keep coming and going.

[RyRywifey in reply to Icanbeathis2016]

Omg that sounds sooooo similar to me... I hate this.. and I'm literally freaking out everyday about these bloodwork results smh like I'm so afraid whats gonna be found smh all I can think of is the C word like i literally cannot think of anything else and I'm so afraid that I'm making myself sick. Then I wonder if the slight nausea I've been feeling is a symptom of the c word too smh

[Icanbeathis2016 in reply to RyRywifey]

Girl i feel like ive fell back into the deep hole of fears. I cannot focus on nothing but the worst things. Yesterday i took my daughter to the kiddy fair and i was already feeling so so and anxious but i told myself i was gonna take her anyway and try and enjoy myself watching my little one have a good time but the soon as i get out there im feeling lightheaded girl my muscles felt crampy and legs felt heavy. I literally felt like i would fall a few times if i kept walking. Well i made it through that tho. Then i get some bad news last night about someone (an older woman) that i remember. And i hate this because soon as i hear about someone else's illness or diseases i start thinking i may go through it too. Now im am scared again. I wont even say what it was. This is awful. But just know im having the same thoughts as you. And my sleep is ruined again. Do you pray?

[Agora1]

Hi RyRywifey, It's nice to see you back on the forum but not under these circumstances.. I had so hope you were doing well but know, that this happens to all of us from time to time. Anxiety never leaves forever, there are always traces of adrenaline simmering just waiting for a time in your life where you are vulnerable. You did the right thing by going to the doctor. It's always best to clear out any health issues before assuming it is anxiety, whether it's the first, second or third time etc.

Once you get the results back, you can start from there in getting yourself back on track. We will help. Think positive in that you were able to get past this once before and you will again. You will be your happy, fearless self again. Let us know the results when you get them. Wishing you well. It's going to be okay. xx

[RyRywifey in reply to Agora1]

Thank you sooo very much Agora, you truly have no idea how much your messages help me. I'm very scared but I will let you guys know my results as soon as I receive them. Thank you so much