Feeling Worthless.

[_Reba_]

I cannot seem to get through each day without crying at least once. I struggle with normal everyday activities such as getting dressed, eating and even my own personal hygiene. My anxiety is the worst it has ever been and I'm really sinking into rock bottom.

I know my parents are planning me an appointment to go to the doctors but I don't even want to go anymore. I just don't see the point and it'll cause more stress for me.

I'm just in my bedroom crying and I have these crazy thoughts going through my head right now. I just want it all to end.

[Agora1]

_Reba_, the longer it takes to get you into the doctor, the more you will start backing off. Your mom is going to have to let him know that it is imperative that you be seen ASAP or take you into the ER today. Waiting is no longer an option. You need to see a therapist as well as be started on medication to quiet down these thoughts ruminating through your mind. Keeping you safe is a priority. Keep us updated. xx

[_Reba_ in reply to Agora1]

This is the lowest I've ever felt and I just want it to go away. I'm scared of going to the doctors because I know I'll just cry and then I'll look stupid. I don't even know what's wrong with me anymore. I personally think it's not just anxiety because I've really never felt so depressed.

[Agora1 in reply to _Reba_]

Reba, definitely it's both anxiety and severe depression. Some one does need to see you. Someone you feel comfortable with. Do you have a Psychiatrist? Don't worry about how they may perceive you. You are hurting bad emotionally, it's okay to cry. The depression needs to be addressed honey. x

[_Reba_ in reply to Agora1]

My mum will 100% force me to go to the doctors, if I say no then she would drag me there.

I don't have a Psychiatrist but my mum was thinking about that when I told her everything a few days back.

I never like having panic attacks in public as I feel like I look stupid or people will judge me. The last thing I want is to cry in the waiting room and to have people stare. I guess I'll have to make an exception this time though.

[Agora1 in reply to _Reba_]

Definitely make an exception.. This is about you now. Don't care about what people think anyway they are too wrap up in themselves to care. I can't tell you all the times I've cried in doctor's offices. I always brings a pair of sunglasses to hide my tears. Your mom is right in thinking the psychiatrist is the better way to go in getting the help you need. x

[_Reba_ in reply to Agora1]

Thank you ❤️

[Coldalaska]

Talk to someone. You will feel better. Everything will be good. A professional will help you through it all. Get well.

[PaulaL]

I understand that go to doctors could be stressfull, i already went to some and one of my strongest anxiety attacks was because of it, but when i manage to go, my life became much easier, so i think you should see a doctor and let him help you

Just hold on and keep figthing because you are stronger than that disease

[_Reba_ in reply to PaulaL]

Thank you ❤️ Hoping to be going this week

[Cat33]

Don't worry about crying at the doctors think of you not anyone else If you saw someone cry at the doctors all you would feel is compassion The doctor has heard everything a hundred times nothing you will say will sound silly

Once you take that step you are on the road to recovery especially when you tell them of your thoughts of ending it all There are the most wonderful people out there just waiting to help you Good luck xxxx

[_Reba_ in reply to Cat33]

Thank you ❤️ I made an appointment this morning and got in tomorrow for 9:30.