Hi, I started having panic attacks back in the 90s. Back then the doctor would tell me to "breathe into a bag," and there was not much known about depression/anxiety. I finally found a doctor that had me do a check off list of symptoms and was put on Paxil. So I have been medicated for many years. I recently was diagnosed with menopause after having a break down and asking for medial leave for the last 6 weeks of teaching. I have been rediagnosed to help with these changes and am feeling better, but the anxiety about returning to work end of August is starting to give me that niggling, tingling, scared feeling. I don't want to wake up because it means I'm another day closer to going back to work.
I have a meeting with my principal in three weeks to discuss how I simply left after calling my principal and saying I couldn't come back and would be sending in medical leave paperwork as soon as I could. She had emailed and wanted me to come in to help with sub plans and I just couldn't. I spent about two weeks in bed crying, sleeping, just doing the minimum.
I guess I just want to know if anyone else can relate to what I'm going through. I have worked 20 years in teaching and feel inadequate. I wish I could get a different job, but I need to keep my benefits and salary. Don't know how to go about finding another job and time is running out.
Anyone out there relate to what I'm going through?