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[DancingMind94]

Tonight's the night I've reached the lowest of lows!! Can't control the drop any longer. It's draining from me faster than usual and it's make me sleepy I just want to sleep 😴!!

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HELLOOOOOOOO! SORRY, BUT I CAN'T YELL ANY LOUDER AND YOU'RE RATHER FAR AWAY FROM ME!

What's happening with you right now?

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I SAID "HELLOOOOOOOOOO!

I CAN'T YELL ANY LOUDER AND NO ONE ELSE HAS HEARD YOU YET!

What is going on with you right now, PLEASE ANSWER ME.

[Agora1]

DancingMind94, when we get to this stage with anxiety, something needs to change. Either our attitude towards it or time for medication. A crutch, a bandaid, a bridge, what ever you want to call it. You need something to give you relief so that you can have the strength to figure out other alternatives in dealing with anxiety.

Doing nothing accomplishes nothing. Popping pills and expecting a miracle does nothing. Anxiety needs work. Educating yourself on the causes and cures for anxiety. The more you know the better chance you have of turning this around. A great book on Acceptance is Dr. Claire Weekes book on "Hope & Help for your Nerves" It explains everything you are feeling symptom wise as well as hopelessness in dealing with everyday anxiety. Until you accept what you are going through as not harmful it will continue. It doesn't happen overnight, but it will happen for you as it did for others.

Don't lose hope. The answer is within you. You have the power to retrain your negative thoughts around. Little steps at a time will achieve the results you are looking for.....Peace & Calm. x

[DancingMind94 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you for you reply, it means a lot having people care!! I just can't help this feeling I can't move I'm feeling that numb I've done something silly tonight and it's helped for that split second.

[Agora1 in reply to DancingMind94]

DancingMind94, I was off the forum for an hour but I think I've missed something you were trying to tell us. Have you self harmed yourself? Please talk to us. Need to know you are safe. x

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HELLOOOOOOOOOOO!

I'M YELLING AS LOUDLY AS I CAN AND I'M NOT GIVING UP CAUSE NO ONE ELSE HAS HEARD YOU YET!

PLEASE respond to me. Tell me what's going on. I'm here, but almost wasn't...was closing down my computer when I saw your post. But I stayed on to answer you and listen to you. Tell me what's going on. I'm tired too, but you are important.

[DancingMind94 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for replying, I just can't handle this anymore I've reached rock bottom and don't no how to get back on top

[Hidden in reply to DancingMind94]

Hello. Ok. Thank you for finally answering me. I was getting hoarse from yelling.

Have you read Agora1's reply yet? It is better than any response I can give you right now. I'll stand by while you read it, ok?

Do not put anything in your mouth, no pills no water, no nothing. You are important, you are loving, you are intelligent, and this incredible universe managed to create you....It is not a coincidence that I saw your post first so I could YELL from so many thousands of miles away....and I do not believe in coincidences.

[Vbee in reply to Hidden]

Bloody hell pstd i can hear you here from australia!!

[Hidden in reply to Vbee]

Sorry if I disturbed you...it was getting late in our time zone, and England is over 5 hours past ours, so was afraid she might do something before she received support from parts of the world where someone was awake......And it was the only thing I could think of to distract her until other replies 8came. Repetitive Constant Shouting by a crazy woman. She was kind enough to write back that it did distract her for enough time to receive replies.

I can't speak a word today and have been baned from all the 'Hotsy-Totsy' women's organizations in the US southern states.

[Vbee in reply to Hidden]

Ha ha! Nah didn't disturb me - hope she writes back and starts on the road to glimpsing hope. Such an easy slippery slide to head down - this anxiety trip. And so many paradoxes - sleep deprivation contributes but so many are afraid to sleep, exercise helps but so many are afraid of making their heart work, medication can offer a temporary respite but so many are afraidof side effects, social interaction is vital to recovery but so many are afraid of have a panic attack in company. It is all rooted in fear.

I'm glad you're on this forum to offer a voice of calm and reason and hopefully have helped many - even if there are some who are on groundhog day!!

Keep up the replies and if you gotta yell then do it!!

SEEYA!!

[Hidden in reply to Vbee]

Please Yell back to me sometime....you are a pleasure to "hear"...really...It sometimes is after 2 a.m. here because when I am preparing to go to bed when we try to, as I close my laptop, sometimes I'll see a post notice on my email in box that really "feels" like serious trouble, so I open it, hoping it's not, but if it is, I'll stay up and keep answering or trying to reach someone in an earlier time zone to take over until we know that person is going to be ok for that night at least.

It's actually remarkable that there are people like you and all the others globally I have met on this venue, who happen to read a post and pick up they need to take over "the talk". The older I get, the less I believe in coincidences.

Tonight I can't do that and will have to close early. Have an end of life situation starting with my 12 year old service dog and he needs some extra care now. If he sees I'm still in my rocking chair on the computer, he won't go to bed and lies down next to me on the floor as he was trained years ago. He's the one that gets the "HELLOOOOOOO" tonight. lol "Have a good evening, hear?" (That last sentence was a your probably first taste of US 'southern' dialect.)

[Vbee in reply to Hidden]

Onya mate - as aussie as you can get! I'm off on my beach walk with one of my 4 tibetan spaniels! Sleep peaceful.

[Hidden in reply to Vbee]

Ahhh. The water and spaniels.

You have a good life. Will be 8 p.m. here, not quite twilight, but the air conditioning makes us feel as though the tropical heat has disappeared.

Scooter simply won't eat tonight. I'm starting to brush him and maybe we'll be able to walk to a shop in the morning early before the heat is too intense.

The white sand beaches are beautiful but too hot to walk him there this time of year.

Nite.

[Hidden in reply to Vbee]

Oh, you wonder about her reply, yes, last night and several times today, very sweet short messages that she rested today and was doing better, and thanks for the "talking" yesterday. Could not have received a better thank you note to all. The messages were calm.

[Vbee in reply to Hidden]

Good to hear! I remember once during a particularly long anxious period, i said to my husband that i just wanted to go to sleep and for it all to be gone. He rang my mother convinced that i was going to commit suicide - i failed to finish my wish that "when i wake up" it would all be gone!! I have such hopes for the mornings - always better after good sleep. We have school.holidays started today so no 6am wake up and rush for the 7am bus, no school lunches, no homework arguments ahhh bliss- 10 am and the 2 teenagers are still asleep!!

[Hidden in reply to Vbee]

Oh, but did you get your walk with your spaniel?

Raised a wonderful stepson years ago. The teenage years are 'interesting'. One never knows when she is talking with the very young adult or the very old child, and they switch in mid conversation. Enjoy the break from the well but tightly scheduled mornings.

[Vbee in reply to Hidden]

Had my walk but had to get home quicker than usual as there was a rain front coming through and i had left the bird in his cage on the deck - didn't want him to get soaked!! I have a boy and a girl and they are very very different from each other! Boy is calm and agreeable girl is feisty, fun and volatile! Keeps me from stagnating!

[Hidden]

Ok, Please listen to Agora1 and respond to her because I know you don't like my yelling....but I am so far from you was just hoping you knew I really cared.

[DancingMind94 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for caring x

[Hidden in reply to DancingMind94]

Ok, now read Agora1's incredible reply to you. I'll wait until you read it and reply to her or me.

[Jeff1943]

DancingMind94, I was going to reply to you but I read Agora1's reply and Agora1 said everything I was going to tell you only better than I could write it. So read that post again as it is the best, the most important piece if advice you will ever be given and then act upon it and in the fullness of time all will be well with you again I promise.

[daisy-17]

Oh dancingmind please get intouch with someone to help you your doctor any family if your in the uk get in touch with MIND crisis team. I have seen my best friend hit rock bottom and wanting to do things to herself and she has pulled though it. Please get someone to help you xxxx