I don't know what's wrong with me, I've been working on getting better for 2 years now and I am still very messed up in the head and no1 has the answers I need. I'm seeing the cmht next week no1 really takes me serious i don't think, I have said I will go to a mental hospital what ever it takes! But they don't, just to point out I've been trying as hard as I can to find out what's wrong with me, medications,cbt,seeing specialists,quitting alcohol 2 years ago, I am soooo frustrated I do think I will go out one day and just got absolutely mad, kill people anything. Now I have had to rely on people to get better and I am starting be against the world, I have nothing to loose, what's the worst that can happen? I die and that would really be a good thing!!!!!! 1 day something awfull will happen I can only do so much myself, 1 day I will go out and bang it's all over, I've never tried so hard for anything in my life before , I have sacrificed everything to just feel normal.